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Sinbad

Sinbad

Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
Nov 27, 2018
542
Night time definitely.. Usually 2 hours before falling asleep (12-2am)

Also, when I wake up and realize my problems aren't dreams..
 
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jaemus12

jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
562
Bedtime.
 
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nohoper

Member
Dec 2, 2018
64
same here nighttime when i should be sleeping but cant.
 
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Rose Mirren

Rose Mirren

roses are so overrated
Dec 10, 2018
101
No specific time, tbh. As a bipolar, everything can change in a snap. It drives me crazy.
 
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Sinbad

Sinbad

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Nov 27, 2018
542
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DKs

DKs

Member
Oct 14, 2018
58
Hmm not sure,i'm least depressed at 4:20
 
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Johnnythefox

Johnnythefox

Que sera sera
Nov 11, 2018
3,129
Anytime I'm awake....
 
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LivedTooLong

LivedTooLong

Avoidant
Apr 26, 2018
156
Mornings are the worst for me, although insomnia makes nighttime pretty miserable as well.
 
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ChickenAndPotatoes

ChickenAndPotatoes

Veteran Veteran
Nov 8, 2018
137
Nighttime.
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,504
Morning. As soon as I wake up and realise I'm still in my nightmare.
 
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Fucking loving it

Fucking loving it

Specialist
Sep 3, 2018
378
I have rapid cycling bipolar. Right now I'm in a mixed episode so I never fucking know when I'll be depressed or manic. Also it's not the happy high mania it's the irritable agitated just fucking snapping type mania.
 
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ReadyasEver

ReadyasEver

Elementalist
Dec 6, 2018
828
Evenings for sure....general malaise and fatigue set in after a long day.
 
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[NoName]

[NoName]

Student
Nov 15, 2018
146
Mornings are the worst :'(
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
When I get up it's pretty brutal. I have thoughts that are just so defeating. I'm groggy and I'm very pessimistic. It takes some hours b4 it lifts a bit. In the mornings I always wish I had N right there so I could just drink it down and be done with my pathetic existence.
 
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Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
622
Think it's worst when I am at work. Everyone is just normal and happywoth their little problems.
And I am there just wishing someone would come in and shoot me. Or I would die in a car accident on the way to work.
It's hard to see my life while standing around people who are worried about dying or getting sick - their anxiety is situated towards something bad happening to them- I am miserable and want to die.
It's a strain on them to hear my BS. Which just makes me feel alone and like shit.
 
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LifeSick

LifeSick

Eat the rich or die!
Sep 20, 2018
167
Usually mornings, either because of waking up from a neutral or good dream because of a nightmare.
 
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Meeseeks

Meeseeks

Student
Nov 15, 2018
100
Mornings. I don't want to wake up
 
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slowlystarve

slowlystarve

abomination
Dec 10, 2018
43
morning
the second i register i'm conscious i panic and want to cease to be
 
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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,140
Mornings - not that I feel good later in the day but it really hurts when I first wake up.
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
Around noon.
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
Where have u been? Omg I haven't seen u since I joined lol!

This forum was making me more depressed after some time(reminding me all the time, why I need to CTB) and I have to maintain a certain level of mental strength so I can take care of some things before I CTB. I want to CTB in a dignified and epic way after doing everything on my list of things to do before I die and that is going to cost me a lot of $$$.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
This forum was making me more depressed after some time and I have to maintain a certain level of mental strength so I can take care of some things before I CTB. I want to CTB in a dignified and epic way after doing everything on my list of things to do before I die and that is going to cost me a lot of $$$.
Right, I understand that. Good idea
 
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Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,819
Right, I understand that. Good idea

Yeah, if my depression takes over, I won't be able to do anything and then when it's time for me to go, I will die unhappy with regrets and worries...
 
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Sinbad

Sinbad

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Nov 27, 2018
542
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Amira

Amira

Student
Nov 15, 2018
180
In the Night or when I leave the house.
 
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Tyuiop

Student
Nov 25, 2018
155
Currently afternoon and evening. I have about six okay hours in the day, and six hours spent contemplating ctb/lying in bed and staring at the ceiling. I think it's because I'm probably bipolar.
 
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Bluedew

Bluedew

Old and tired. Ready for this to be over !
Nov 8, 2018
25
Mornings...……………..here we go again !
 
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Jodes

Jodes

Enlightened
Nov 23, 2018
1,261
Night time definitely.. Usually 2 hours before falling asleep (12-2am)

Also, when I wake up and realize my problems aren't dreams..
I wish doctors would stop asking me this. Hey, you're a bloody doctor, aren't ya!??? Get him!!!

I never really know. Too much affects it including random mood swings. ADHD and ASD don't help me recognise the emotions either
 
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