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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
Basically title. What would it be?

And by fulfilling I mean something more than just having contempt and being able to tolerate the existence, but actually like it.
 
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BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
Getting everything I want. No exceptions. I'll focus on love (from a guy) the most. I don't care if it is too boring because it is perfect. Boredom is always better than pain.
 
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decafcoffee

decafcoffee

Member
Nov 15, 2019
85
ive not had much luck with friends or family. life feels empty and sad. i had the idea to join the canadian forces several years ago during a crisis, and i became determined to get to the stage where they might actually take me and i could possibly succeed. sadly, things only got worse. im barely hanging on, but still believe only the military could provide everything i need in this miserable fucking world. i never got to just hang out with people, go to parties, all the fun shit teens and young adults do. have a purpose. ive been alone and feeling miserable and pathetic for so much of my life, with very few good people ever around. feeling totally alienated by society. the usual, i guess. so yeah, military, preferably infantry or something else active. so many hurdles to overcome, like my skin problems lately that have dumped yet more anxiety on me. thats why im back here. i think my goal is most likely never going to be obtained, and i will finally have to die after a lifetime of struggling.
 
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seho_j

seho_j

Member
Nov 12, 2018
68
The ability to actually feel something would be nice for a start. My anhedonia makes my life a series of nothingness.
And then maybe a job that I like, which I don't know what it would be.
 
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beatlegirl

beatlegirl

Beatles Fact Machine
Jan 18, 2020
26
I'd like to feel love. Love made me want to live before, love made me plan a future. I'm not the same without it. Love would my life fullfilling again.

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Shero

Shero

Experienced
Dec 19, 2019
275
Having a strong bond to another person.
Mastery of a craft that defines/shapes your personality.
Experiences (bad or good) that broaden your horizons.
Satisfaction on the way to a goal.
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
I had it all and threw it away.

Job I could perform and enjoy with good community, home that was grounding and centering, nature, financial security and stability, and chances to pursue my love of dance and performing arts and travel.
Having a partner or lover that was o the same page as me and healthy would've been nice. But gave up. Pick wrong guy often enough you end up only attracting toxicity.
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
Getting everything I want. No exceptions. I'll focus on love (from a guy) the most. I don't care if it is too boring because it is perfect. Boredom is always better than pain.
Pretty much this. Absolutely everything I want with only minor hardships so that the good times still feel like good times and not just another event that occurs in my existence. Nothing could be fulfilling for me short of a paradise that most likely doesn't exist to begin with.
 
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BPD Barbie

BPD Barbie

Visionary
Dec 1, 2019
2,361
Everything I can't have and have already lost.
 
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Green Destiny

Green Destiny

Life isn't worth the trouble.
Nov 16, 2019
867
Finally move out and live my own life. Try to hang out with old friends and having a job that I look forward to working everyday. Of course there is the off chance that even if I did get all this i'd still wish to CTB. Plenty of people get and have everything they could wan't, and they still wish to die.
 
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ctbUniquectb

Pariah
Jan 7, 2020
489
Females not despising me for short height and autism
 
Innereye

Innereye

Know thy self
Jan 18, 2020
301
For me all I need are my friends and bare minimum physical health. I feel like its not too much to ask for.
 
Xaphous

Xaphous

hikikomori
Nov 11, 2018
550
I think im denied every in life except food water and shelter. Anything past that would be a start.
 
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Taylored

I've figured it out
Sep 20, 2018
321
Just being left alone to do my own thing without being watched would be fulfilling to me.
 
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Reallyreallyreally

Experienced
Jan 13, 2020
205
A sense of solid, stable community and relief from the constant fears of destitution, being attacked, etc.
 
Little Mook

Little Mook

Member
Oct 20, 2019
88
To be independent and able to find something fulfilling that will contribute in some way and make it possible to travel.
 
shoganai

shoganai

Member
Jan 14, 2020
33
This is a hard question. I suppose living alone with a dog, in a moderately sized home, with a decent job. But I can't imagine these things actually happening. Is that bad? Messed up?
 

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