busrider
Member
- Aug 10, 2024
- 35
Hi SS! my first post here. I've already decided on a method (SN) and have everything I need except SN (because I want to do home delivery, but for that I need to be alone at home). I know for sure that I will be alone for about a week and a half at the end of summer (my family is leaving for vacation). From now on I have about 3-3.5 weeks. Actually there is a chance that I will have to pospone it all to the winter months (like late December-early January), but still. The last five years I've been clinically depressed, taking a lot of pills, going to therapy and still not being able to get back to my _normal_happy_life_ That's why at least these few weeks(months) I want to spend in peace doing simple things that can bring me some happiness. So far I think about the details and want to start interacting with the site and people here
during these 3 weeks (dont have a plan for months, but I definitely have to go back to university):
1. Сut my hair short
2. Review your favorite movies, cartoons, anime
3. Read the last book of a series of books that I have been reading for 1.5 year (due to depression, it is not so big lol)
4. Maybe I'll go to the cinema with a friend to see a movie that came out recently
on my last day:
during these 3 weeks (dont have a plan for months, but I definitely have to go back to university):
1. Сut my hair short
2. Review your favorite movies, cartoons, anime
3. Read the last book of a series of books that I have been reading for 1.5 year (due to depression, it is not so big lol)
4. Maybe I'll go to the cinema with a friend to see a movie that came out recently
on my last day:
- since I need to drink the minimum amount of water, I will drink the last cup of my favorite tea early in the morning
- check again the farewell notes for friends and family
- probably I will try some meditation (1-2 hours OR MORE idk I'm pretty anxious) to relax
- clean my room for the last time
- watch my favorite cartoon with friends on discord (actually we are just good acquaintances, but these people have been so much supporting me through internet, thx to them)
- take a short walk later in the evening to visit the fountains near my house
- take a bath and make all these things like face and hair mask, body scrub, bath bomb, candles, etc
- we have a tradition: talking on the discord until someone falls asleep. This time I will be the one who falls asleep. I'll put up a playlist that I'll make in advance and just say «I took my sleeping pills» (they know about depression and the medications so nothing suspicious)