Discussion What would your 15-year-old self think of you?

[Alexei_Kirillov]

In my case I think she'd be absolutely horrified, maybe even in disbelief, unable to conceive of how someone could spend their life starving on obscenely little amounts of food then binging on obscenely enormous amounts of food then making themself throw up then doing it all over again day after day after day for years on end, all the while having failed at committing suicide several times, and being completely disinterested in all their previous interests, and being completely isolated, having never found a boyfriend even approaching 24, and to top it all off, unemployed due to incapacity.

I think teenage-me would look at current-me with scorn and pity.

 

[-Link-]

"Oh dear..."

 

[EvisceratedJester]

She'd probably be surprised that I even graduated high school, disappointed about the fact that her attempt wasn't successful, and not surprised by the fact that I still want to kill myself. She would also be shocked after finding out about some of the shit I have done.

 

[Makoto]

"you can't be me... you have boobs"

 

[Gangrel]

oh it got worse

 

[Lady Laudanum]

oh it got worse

Because I made you smell like poo using my big fat tapeworm

 

[Gangrel]

Because I made you smell like poo using my big fat tapeworm

Because i'm gonna piss on your stuff.

 

[Lady Laudanum]

Because i'm gonna piss on your stuff.

I hope your piss backs up all the way into your balls, makes them swell like balloons, and gives you a complicated UTI

(mods, don't punish us for being bad because we're just bantering)

 

[sugarb]

I hope your piss backs up all the way into your balls, makes them swell like balloons, and gives you a complicated UTI

I hope that happens to you, they swell to the size of mangoes, and then you accidentally sit on them, causing them to violently explode

 

[Lady Laudanum]

I hope that happens to you, they swell to the size of mangoes, and then you accidentally sit on them, causing them to violently explode

Jokes on you, I don't have balls because I was castrated by my step dad's pet pitbull (which was sadly taken away by animal control shortly thereafter) when I was 7 years old

 

[sugarb]

In my case I think she'd be absolutely horrified, maybe even in disbelief, unable to conceive of how someone could spend their life starving on obscenely little amounts of food then binging on obscenely enormous amounts of food then making themself throw up then doing it all over again day after day after day for years on end, all the while having failed at committing suicide several times, and being completely disinterested in all their previous interests, and being completely isolated, having never found a boyfriend even approaching 24, and to top it all off, unemployed due to incapacity.

I think teenage-me would look at current-me with scorn and pity.

I think he'd be disturbed and then probably become suicidal. I wasn't consciously suicidal around then because things were somewhat better, I was less aware/knowledgeable, and I had never considered it as an option. If I saw and talked to my current self I'd probably just get to where I am now quicker

Jokes on you, I don't have balls because I was castrated by my step dad's pet pitbull (which was sadly taken away by animal control shortly thereafter) when I was 7 years old

Joke's actually on you, my dad's aunt's husband's boyfriend works at animal control, stole the swollen balls from the pitbull's stomach, and has been holding onto them for many years until earlier today when he slipped them in your food

 

[Lady Laudanum]

Joke's actually on you, my dad's aunt's husband's boyfriend works at animal control, stole the swollen balls from the pitbull's stomach, and has been holding onto them for many years until earlier today when he slipped them in your food

You tried, but you couldn't punish me with a good time

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I was already like this at 15.

 

[poizenman]

I think he would be surprised to know it doesn't ever get better, that there's no way anything can make him feel worse but there is and it does, it gets worse.

 

[sugarb]

You tried, but you couldn't punish me with a good time

Touché

 

[HereTomorrow]

"I knew it".

I said at 15 I'd be a catastrophic failure and I should of CTB'd right now to avoid it.

Nowadays I work retail and get overwhelmed every other day by my own thoughts.

If 15 year old me saw me they'd probably CTB more efficiently to avoid the inevitable future.

 

[render]

no joke i think i'd try to strangle myself. i dont think it'd work but i was pathetic enough to try at that age

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

haha 15 year old me wouldn't be able to see me

 

[greenblood]

nothing new for my 15 year old self

 

[banger12]

If me and 15 year old me met we'd have mutual hatred for each other and ourselves. Maybe I'd laugh at him, viewing him as ridiculous. Maybe he'd find me to be pathetic and embarassing. We'd both be correct. I represent a lot of what he'd hate most, and as much as I hate myself, I'm very proud of the changes that he'd resent most. At the same time my life definitely has gone in a very rough direction this past year. I'd maybe serve as a cautionary tale to my younger self and he'd spare himself all the pain and bullshit.

Edit: maybe he'd stop wasting his time with the fear and indecision and just CTB early and spare himself of the next seven years of bullshit that I've had to endure.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

He'd think I'm a loser for quitting my animation degree and he'd probably just be mad I didn't keep pursuing the girl I was attracted to back then. He might be proud of some of my video game accomplishments though.

When I was 15 I was still living with my dad until partway through that year so I guess once he saw what my life was like with my mom maybe he'd just kill himself sooner realizing that even though things are better, they aren't that much better.

 

[turbomightbegone]

my 15 year old self would probably avoid me if anything. ive had social anxiety for as long as i remember, and considering the fact that i was getting relentlessly drained and bullied at school, my 15 year old self would probably lock herself up somewhere and wouldn't say a word to me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

My 15 year old self would be stupidly encouraged by what she saw. She was even more obsessed with Art at that point. Even crumbs that pointed towards being able to do it as a job would have been all she needed. Even if I told her we would still be suicidal. That it would be such a struggle to maintain this job. That it would constantly be under threat, she would have stubbornly ignored me. Still, she maybe would have made better choices to get into this job earlier. (I chose an unwise degree to begin with.)

She would be so jealous/relieved to see us away from the awful home life we were in at that point. Age 15 was a really bad time for me. Shame I wouldn't be able to reassure her that it would all work out but, at least I could say it would get better for a bit at least.

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

15-year old me would probably grab the shotgun in my room and immediately shoot me and himself.

 

[Rust]

It feels as if time has stood still for me while it has moved for others. Some things have improved while other things have gotten worse. Regardless, everything still feels the same.

I don't think my 15 year old self would be very surprised. Though my 15 year old self would probably be too focused on self preservation to care about the future.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Nothing really. I'm more or less similar now than when I was 15

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I'd like to think he was smart and empathetic enough to understand things like chronic illness compromising a person's ability to reach their full potential, but I'm not entirely sure he would. He was a cocky little prick, and a bit of a numbnuts. Mind you, what's new.

 

[purpleuser]

I'd laugh at the wretchedness of my future self.

 

[SteamaHorns]

He'd be terrified and would become far more self-aware of his current problems. I was only partially conscious of my main issue at the time.

 

[lovelesslifeless]

Thankful most likely, to be warned and informed of what and who to steer clear of and why.
Though probably a bit more saddened, fearful and disappointed after being made aware of the true nature of their circumstances, such is life.
At the very least they'd have more time to recover, prepare and plan ahead.