What would your ideal life / existence be?

[a-fond-farewell]

It can be as far-fetched or realistic as you want.

I've honestly never really liked the idea of being someone. Having a body. Having an ego. I don't like to have a self. My dream has always been to be some kind of neutral and incorporeal spectator. Just observing and watching the world go by for eternity. I suppose, kind of like watching a show. I don't want to be part of the show.

 

[InTheAbyss]

Personally I'm hoping for non-existence. Just to be sure there's no possibility of suffering anymore.

 

[alwaysalone]

It can be as far-fetched or realistic as you want.

I've honestly never really liked the idea of being someone. Having a body. Having an ego. I don't like to have a self. My dream has always been to be some kind of neutral and incorporeal spectator. Just observing and watching the world go by for eternity. I suppose, kind of like watching a show. I don't want to be part of the show.

That's interesting but is it possible to observe and like the show if you're not self aware to an extent?
In a perfect world I would be alone in a small neat cabin. In a large forest or in the mountains. No one in sight for miles. Good wifi and a small town within driving distance for essentials. I wouldn't be beholden to anyone and no one would be beholden to me.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

that's easy for me to answer. Have people and family around that love me and try to support me with my faults. Having a woman who loves and desires me as I do her. Be in love and help each other out when things go wrong. Not to be disabled mentally for all the hardships I had under go and shutting down when stressed or depressed. having the drive to work hard to lose weight and find something to live for. Instead of this desk with a computer that I use nearly 24 hours a day since I have no life at all.
be happy and loved. that's it.

 

[Nauyaca]

Non existence, it's by far the best outcome, and by far the most unrealistic and out of reach one.

 

[loser4ever4life]

I think I'd just want to be a doctor, as pathetic as it sounds. I used to have such a passion for it, I think I'm smart enough for it, but I just have lost that spark right now. Nothing brings me joy and I just want to die.

But some part of me still knows that what I want most is to be in a hospital, doing research and fighting for others. I just can't realize that future in my current state.

 

[dearlydeparted44]

If I had to be this person, then non-existence. If I could have loving parents who intended to have me and were able to take care of me, then I would opt for that. No one should have children unless they are ready, willing, and able to take care of and love them.

 

[ashendreams]

i just wanna be a real girl. everything would be easier if i wasnt trans :/

if not that then i wanna be a bug or something. no worries no mental illness just go about my bug business until i get eaten by a bird or something

 

[divinemistress36]

Being healthy emotionally, mentally, physically with a good partner and a bunch of dogs in a cabin

 

[Grog]

I just want to have money so I can get away from the people I don't want to live with and don't want to see anymore.

But, if I could have any type of life, I'd love to live a life of luxury tbh~ I'd love to have lots of money so I could have a beautiful home and so I could afford to travel anywhere~

 

[imitoto]

I hate pain, so I'd have to be something without pain receptors- like a speck of dust on someone's desk. Pollen from a tree.

 

[Elsie]

I want to be a bit popular, always know what to do and confident... And beautiful and get at least money to eat good food and be with technologies everyday reading, playing games

 

[a-fond-farewell]

i just wanna be a real girl. everything would be easier if i wasnt trans :/

if not that then i wanna be a bug or something. no worries no mental illness just go about my bug business until i get eaten by a bird or something

Lol this is so real. I hate the damage that puberty has done to my body. I hate that I wasn't simply born as a woman.

 

[idontwanttosuffer]

Healthy body. Simple.

 

[a-fond-farewell]

I think I'd just want to be a doctor, as pathetic as it sounds. I used to have such a passion for it, I think I'm smart enough for it, but I just have lost that spark right now. Nothing brings me joy and I just want to die.

But some part of me still knows that what I want most is to be in a hospital, doing research and fighting for others. I just can't realize that future in my current state.

That is not pathetic in any way whatsoever. I totally get that. I've always been interested in medicine. If I wasn't actively planning for my death, I'd be looking at which schools to go to so I can become a nurse practitioner or really anything in the field now that I've graduated HS. Hospitals have been always fascinating to me. I experienced medical abuse once, but there was a nurse who was very empathetic and overly apologetic for the actions of someone else, even though I never even told anyone there about it. I'd love to be that kind of person. You can't always stop bad people from harming others, but you can be the person who provides help and love to people who need it. To heal them.

 

[aiyuxhan]

Honestly, if I didn't have chronic pain 24/7 or debilitating chronic illnesses with no cures, I wouldn't be on this site wanting to kill myself.

Before things got really bad and worse for me, I had hope in life and living.

So, I guess a life I envision is one free of chronic pain. If I didn't have these freaken pains, I can do whatever I want. :(

 

[idontwanttosuffer]

I think I'd just want to be a doctor, as pathetic as it sounds. I used to have such a passion for it, I think I'm smart enough for it, but I just have lost that spark right now. Nothing brings me joy and I just want to die.

But some part of me still knows that what I want most is to be in a hospital, doing research and fighting for others. I just can't realize that future in my current state.

Sorry it's not pathetic at all.

 

[a-fond-farewell]

Honestly, if I didn't have chronic pain 24/7 or debilitating chronic illnesses with no cures, I wouldn't be on this site wanting to kill myself.

Before things got really bad and worse for me, I had hope in life and living.

So, I guess a life I envision is one free of chronic pain. If I didn't have these freaken pains, I can do whatever I want. :(

I feel very sorry for people who experience chronic pain such as yourself. I've seen how it can change people. But yeah, I think that's perfectly reasonable. To live pain-free.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I suppose similarly, I would like to experience life without so many bodily constraints. Mainly for me, it's the reality of having to (work and) pay for everything I want to be rid of. Ideally though, I'd like the freedom to be able to see some beautiful landscapes, experience beautiful things, eat some really nice food without the never ending slog of work and chores and upkeep of ourselves. Definitely not forever too. I expect most things become boring after a while. I wish we could all leave painlessly when we choose.

The most complicated thing about life is perhaps relationships though. Can we love but not miss and mourn when someone goes? How would that work, so that no one suffered? I'm not sure it could. So, ultimately, I don't think utopia could exist. I suppose realistically, I think no life would be better to one full of compromises.

 

[aiyuxhan]

I feel very sorry for people who experience chronic pain such as yourself. I've seen how it can change people. But yeah, I think that's perfectly reasonable. To live pain-free.

Yeah, it has changed me into a person I thought I wouldn't be. :( I was happy, grateful, positive, hopeful, etc. and it all changed because of debilitating pains all over my body. My husband says that I can be snappy, mean, and negative at times when I wasn't like that years before.

And I'm sad because I worked so hard to overcome suicidal thoughts from my youth. Only to now suffer with physical pain 24/7 which makes me suicidal. Life sucks

 

[Jiroscope]

I just want to have a quiet, normal life.

 

[Bowerbird]

A world where I could fit in and not feel like an alien living amongst humans. I remember ever since I was a kid, always feeling like a lot of my problems and trauma would be solved if I was just born a boy.

 

[darksouls]

It can be as far-fetched or realistic as you want.

I've honestly never really liked the idea of being someone. Having a body. Having an ego. I don't like to have a self. My dream has always been to be some kind of neutral and incorporeal spectator. Just observing and watching the world go by for eternity. I suppose, kind of like watching a show. I don't want to be part of the show.

humanity does not exist
I live in nature
animals are my family

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

It can be as far-fetched or realistic as you want.

I've honestly never really liked the idea of being someone. Having a body. Having an ego. I don't like to have a self. My dream has always been to be some kind of neutral and incorporeal spectator. Just observing and watching the world go by for eternity. I suppose, kind of like watching a show. I don't want to be part of the show.

I don´t believe that we have a free will, so the feeling to be just a spectator is maybe quite realistic. On the other hand it´s impossible for me to live without the illusion of a free will.

Eternal youth would be my ideal existence, but with the option to quit, if I want it.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Non-existence forever is the ideal state to me

Eternal Non-existence is the only guarantee of never suffering so badly the suffering is a trillion times worse than u can imagine

I would never want to exist under any circumstances

I don't fear Death / non-existence forever. It's the ultimate bliss to me, finally out of danger. I fear life and living as I'm always under threat of extreme torture. And I have to work a job and chores just to exist as a slave uncomfortable under that threat of extreme torture .

Non-existence forever means no suffering no pain problems nor bad memories ever

Only while alive or existing can I suffer.
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Permanent non-existence is the only guarantee of never suffering never any unbearable pain problems nor bad memories

for 13.8 billion years i didn't have any problems before I was born . So why would I be afraid to return to that state of not existing?

What am I? A brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain. Why is that something good? It's not to me it's something very bad a horrible abomination . So I'm supposed to not want this to end now? Why do I have to live to remain trapped in this needy fragile bag of cells with this abomination? Why do I have to want to live? I don't

What stupid pleasure addiction is worth even 30 seconds of the worst pain or suffering? I don't see anything worth the worst pain. I can't separate the pleasure addictions manipulations from the worst torture as they are both part of this same hell . There is pain so bad it makes everything else meaningless

imagine the pain if they forced us to put and hold ur hand on the metal of the inside of that burning hot oven.

Or ur hand placed on a red hot burner on a stove and they won't let us pull it away

or the brazen bull which was like a giant metal oven where they put people inside to torture them the whole skin and body against red hot metal.

A few seconds of that pain can seem like hours

So the brain is capable of producing unbearable pain. The brain is a torture chamber. But they constantly tell us life is so wonderful

What about not just seconds but hours , days , weeks, months of the unending constant unbearable pain not a second's relief for years

But most humans will think a sandwich or some fleeting stupid pleasure addiction is worth the worst pain. Not to me none of that garbage is worth not even 10 seconds of the worst constant pain much less years of the worst pain

Why is my consciousness so special ? At what point in evolution is it different from a mouse , crow, fish , fly , cricket ?

I don't want anything from evil life and their evil prison world except to escape it asap

Permanent Non-existence is the only guarantee of never suffering so badly the suffering is a trillion times worse than u can imagine

 

[bananaolympus]

Being born in an ultra rich family with supermodel looks and height, genius intellect completely healthy in all aspects with an extraordinary natural physique, i don't think thats to much to ask nah but for real just having no big mental, physical and neurological issues

 

[Hymn223]

i wish i was a girl (maybe) and i wish i was swiss, and i would own guns (for recreation not CTB! because guns are awesome!!) and honestly the rest i would be fine keeping the same i think

 

[whatishope]

One reason I'm on here is that I don't have ideal life anymore. If I could be somewhat famous and a public personality, I think I would love that a lot.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

A cat would be nice. they live a peaceful life. A life without the burden of complicated thoughts or worries. As they sleep peacefully, I want those moments of joy and tranquility. They don't live with that silent voice telling them to give up their own life. No stress or drama that weigh on the mind, no burdensome thoughts which you can't leave behind. They just sit there in silence, enjoying their life.

 

[FuneralCry]

None, I'd just never want to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and I wish I never suffered more than anything, for me only non-existence is ideal and positive, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this torturous, futile existence of unnecessary suffering and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed.

I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist in every way and I suffer simply from being conscious of this existence I never would had chosen and just never would had wished for and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten.