What's something you're unable to do due to mental illness, physical illness and/or disabillity that you wish you were able to do?

[Silent_cries]

For me it's two things, the first one is that I wish I was able to socialize and go out more without constantly being anxious about something and/or overthinking things and getting none stop intrusive thoughts and shit.

The second thing, is that I wish I was able to function normally every day without having to constantly do my rituals. I wish I didn't constantly have to think about where I step, what way I put things, what order I eat etc. It gets tiring you know. >_<

 

[yellowjester]

It would be easier to list the things I am still able to do...

Above all else, I wish I was still able to immerse myself in a good book like I used to, not just read a few pages at a time. Also to fully enjoy music again would be nice (my nervous system doesn't properly respond to it anymore). Those two things would be enough to make me the happiest person om earth (at least for a while).

 

[Agon321]

Well, I would like to develop and function normally.
My life is not going in any particular direction. I'm standing still.
I could be in a completely different place right now if I didn't have current problems with myself.
I am losing my youth forever.
I'm worse than everyone I know.
I'm not good at anything because I have no motivation to do anything worthwhile.
I regret being who I am now.
I wish I had a goal, but I don't see it at all.

"Fortunately" I will finish this unfunny comedy soon and I will finally do something right (I hope).


I identify with the second part of your comment.
I also suffer (most likely) from obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I also have my rituals that I follow.
For example, when I turn off the tap, I have to count to 10.
This is just one of many examples of my little rituals.
I waste a lot of time on this during the day.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'm unable to feel any sort of compassion and empathy for myself. I don't have any legitimate justifications, only pathetic excuses for my own misery. I understand other people need to have self esteem and self respect but for myself I just can't see that happening.

I also can't go to work without having to drug myself heavily with CBD in order to not have the threat of a panic attack looming over me.

 

[NumbItAll]

Work, socialize, have fun, etc. Basically just normal life experiences that aren't rotting in a bedroom for decades.

 

[untothedepths]

Being able to travel, to have a job...to be strong emotionally, to have and maintain friendships.

 

[Tesha]

I'd love to feel safe and relaxed. Hypervigiliance has proven useful at times, but for the most it's thoroughly exhausting being constantly on alert.

 

[mythofsisyphus]

To get that feeling as you lay in bed that it's been a good day, that everything's okay, you're life's going well and there's nothing to worry about. I guess you'd call it contentment. I miss this so much more than any of the more extreme feelings of joy or feeling ecstatic etc.

 

[PinballWizard39]

In the most basic sense - 'Live' as in, live my life.

 

[Silent_cries]

Well, I would like to develop and function normally.
My life is not going in any particular direction. I'm standing still.
I could be in a completely different place right now if I didn't have current problems with myself.
I am losing my youth forever.
I'm worse than everyone I know.
I'm not good at anything because I have no motivation to do anything worthwhile.
I regret being who I am now.
I wish I had a goal, but I don't see it at all.

"Fortunately" I will finish this unfunny comedy soon and I will finally do something right (I hope).


I identify with the second part of your comment.
I also suffer (most likely) from obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I also have my rituals that I follow.
For example, when I turn off the tap, I have to count to 10.
This is just one of many examples of my little rituals.
I waste a lot of time on this during the day.

Yeah, I feel that. It is really tiring. I just recently got one where I have to move the handle up and down a certain amount of time whenever I open or close the bathroom door, I also have to eat in a certain order whenever I have meals and take certain amount of sips of off the glass/cup when drinking. I could go on. I have a lot of compulsions. It really is all consuming. I feel for you. I hope you find peace my friend <3
Mind if I ask when your due date is if you have one?

 

[dragonofenvy]

Be able to have basic friendships. A few people I know tell me about how they go to parties, hang out with friends, or just go out to restaurants with people which is something so basic that I've never experienced that I can't help but feel super envious about. I guess it doesn't help that I have almost no trust towards other people and am deathly afraid of getting close to anyone.

I never developed normally like everyone else and I figured that out early on. Since then, I haven't been able to know what a "good day" is like, or what looking forward to the next one is like too.

The other thing would be basic "common sense" tasks. There's just a lot of basic things that everyone else knows how to do. I was good at academics but when it comes to real-world problems I'm just useless and I can tell (or have been told) that I'm useless in those situations. I guess an example of this would be basic maintenance skills, how to operate/use certain things, or even something like cooking which I just can't get right, and eventually just gave up on. The one thing I'm good at is using computers but going to college for them didn't work out for me since I didn't know how to make myself attractive to employers.

 

[ForeverAlone_autist]

Unable to get a partner due to autism and looks. My environment isn't great too

 

[Agon321]

Yeah, I feel that. It is really tiring. I just recently got one where I have to move the handle up and down a certain amount of time whenever I open or close the bathroom door, I also have to eat in a certain order whenever I have meals and take certain amount of sips of off the glass/cup when drinking. I could go on. I have a lot of compulsions. It really is all consuming. I feel for you. I hope you find peace my friend <3
Mind if I ask when your due date is if you have one?

I will most likely be dead in a few months at most.
But there is a possibility that I will die in a week. It depends.

At this point I'm balancing on a very fine line.
I don't need much to finish everything.

Either way, I'm approaching the end of my story.
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My brain hurts from all my "rituals".
Sometimes my brain can't believe my fucking eyes that I turned off the light.
This is difficult.

 

[Serial Experi Pain]

Sincerely smile. Believe compliments. Trust others. Go out to find like-minded individuals.

 

[Silent_cries]

I will most likely be dead in a few months at most.
But there is a possibility that I will die in a week. It depends.

At this point I'm balancing on a very fine line.
I don't need much to finish everything.

Either way, I'm approaching the end of my story.
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My brain hurts from all my "rituals".
Sometimes my brain can't believe my fucking eyes that I turned off the light.
This is difficult.

I'm pretty sick of them too tbh. I do try to fight them sometimes but my anxiety usually gets the best of me.

Anxiety sure is a bitch.

I wish you luck with your ctb regardless of when it ends up happening btw. Just please stay safe! Wouldn't want you to end up a vegetable or anything.

Gl and take care! Giving you my bestest of wishes! Must fate be with you.

 

[Agon321]

I'm pretty sick of them too tbh. I do try to fight them sometimes but my anxiety usually gets the best of me.

Anxiety sure is a bitch.

I wish you luck with your ctb regardless of when it ends up happening btw. Just please stay safe! Wouldn't want you to end up a vegetable or anything.

Gl and take care! Giving you my bestest of wishes! Must fate be with you.

Thanks.
I also wish you luck in whatever you plan to do.

 

[Lady Laudanum]

I have an EMT license but was never able to pursue EMS as a career because I have severe PTSD caused by an abusive partner who tried to crash the car on purpose multiple times when they lost their temper. I can still drive, but it causes me a lot of anxiety and there's no way I can do a job that involves a lot of driving.

Another thing I'm unable to do is maintain a healthy relationship. Despite my best efforts to surround me with people who have my best interests in mind, I either end up with abusive people or people who I scare off because of my insanity.

 

[Silent_cries]

Thanks.
I also wish you luck in whatever you plan to do.

Np, and thanks. I was going for recovery tbh, but I don't think I have it in me to go on anymore. I'm probably going to ctb rly soon but I have some more preparations to do first to ensure an as high successrate as possible. I just hope that if I do go through with it that it'll actually succeed.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

There isn't anything that I wish I could do that I currently cannot. I have autism and the two major things that it affects me with is the ability to make friendships and the ability to wage slave as much as normies can (in addition to this is also me lacking common sense and other basic skills). Being with people made me realise that I'd rather be solitary which means I don't crave friendships. Also, I don't want to work or to have more common sense skills. As for the anhedonia, I don't care enough to want interests either albeit not having any interests does hurt.

There are things I can't do due to my autism and depression but I don't want to do those things anyway

 

[Arachno]

For me it's two things, the first one is that I wish I was able to socialize and go out more without constantly being anxious about something and/or overthinking things and getting none stop intrusive thoughts and shit.

The second thing, is that I wish I was able to function normally every day without having to constantly do my rituals. I wish I didn't constantly have to think about where I step, what way I put things, what order I eat etc. It gets tiring you know. >_<

I can relate a lot, I struggle with OCD a lot and I feel like it's gonna drive me insane soon. It persistently bothers me in my daily life, I can't even do the simpliest things without OCD tormenting me with it's bullshit, it really is tiring. My OCD is hard to explain but I constantly have to worry about having "the right thought" in my head or doing something "the right numbers of times" (I have to count to 18, If I don't get the right thought in my head by this count, I continue to 29, 49, 89, 118, 149 and up) just so I can do something.

I also wish I could function normally, but I'm mentally weak, get overwhelmed easily, overthink over things and can't socialize well. ):

 

[Erring]

It's something very petty, but I've struggled running more than 3km due to asthma. I tried a lot when I was a teen to get into running but there's a hard barrier I can't seem to ever cross around that mark.

 

[ClownWorld2023]

Living a normal life where I don't suffer chronically.

 

[hamtaro]

Eat.
Drink water.
Sleep.

Those would be a lovely start.

 

[Cute_&_Loving]

i can't be loved...........

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Earn a living

 

[BlendedHeart]

Have healthy friendships and a relationship, due to anxiety, depression and asocial behavior.

Also, breathing properly. Due to a mandibular deviation it's harder to correct.

 

[imissmycat]

Friendships because most people get a bad first impression, quickly get annoyed with me, and can't stand me when they've known me a long time.

Casual relationships. They always secretly want something serious. No one ever wanted me just for sex. I'm assuming I'm not attractive enough for that.

 

[lightturquoise]

make the effort to ctb. it's so much hard work and research and it's impossible for me to do with mdd