Just want to feel better about myself I guess. Mine would be swallowing batteries and putting things that should'nt be there in my bottom. Yeah, I'm an idiot sometimes.
Really hope you feel better after reading this, because it's not a story I like to talk about, I'm completely embarrassed about it.
So, few years back I dated a guy, we had an open relationship and I met another guy, let's call him Thrice. At that time it was casual, because I dated someone, but I started to feel embarrassing things towards him. He had three jobs, studied at two universities, have a really great income, spoke two languages and was really hot, and I was the opposite, completely failing in life, in my opinion. He became a recurrent topic on therapy, because I wanted to date him just to show my family and friends I could be good enough, because if he was with me, then I had to be a "good enough" person for them.
I broke up with the first guy for other reasons and saw Thrice once or twice after that, but he stopped talking to me. Months later I entered another relationship, some months later I broke up and who did I texted? Thrice.
Until here it is embarrassing, but that's nothing compared to what you're gone read now.
For a few weeks we talked and I said I just wanted to be friends (lied), he even visited my house and omg how much I wanted to f* that guy right there, but nothing happened. Some days later he told me he was seeing someone, was super excited about her etc, I was "happy" for him (jealous). In the weekend I asked him out, but he said he had already scheduled something with her. Ok. But then he said he didn't want to leave any of us hanging, so invited us to go out together. The three of us. The guy I've been obsessed for months before and now I liked again. I was going out with him and his "girlfriend". So that's where the shit starts.
I got to the bar earlier and when they came I was already drunk. They were touching, kissing, hugging, etc, too much for me to handle, so I (omg I regret that so so much) started to say "you guys are just gonna keep kissing in front of me when I don't have nobody?". And that escalated... I started to be really annoying, physically separating them, hitting on her, and at some point he sat down and she sat on his lap, in one leg. And do you know what I did? I sat in the other leg!!! Omg I really regret everything I did that night, it would have been great to just stay home. I started to tell them I would not be alone, and we should go to a motel the three of us. I even grabbed his phone and told him to open the app for me to schedule a room. He didn't, of course. But he clearly wanted to. Like, he's a guy... And you could see in his face he was enjoying that, he even admitted it would be amazing to have a threesome with us that day. So, I was the one embarrassing myself, he wanted the same but acted like he absteined, and she was just annoyed. But this fucking guy could have done something, just say that the he wanted it too, because everytime he encouraged me I did even more things.
Well, from that point on I was just consistently hitting on her and saying the three of us should go somewhere else, at some point they left me alone at the table, when they came back they changed sits to be away from me and were kind of ignoring me.
Before they came to the bar I had (thankfully) texted my friend and she decided to go there with her date, but they were sitting in a different table and didn't know, but when I saw her we went outside and I (I was really really drunk) told her, in her words: "girl I want to f* him but she's there so now I'm trying to f* both of them but it's not working!!". Of course it was not working!!!! All I know was that in
the end my friend invited me to her table, I was so drunk I couldn't even call an Uber by myself and my friend was the one to call the Uber and check if I got home safe. They didn't care, of course.
And when I got home I slept in a different bedroom with my shoes on and holding my purse (????). But do you think it's over? Oh no, I can humiliate myself even more. Next day I was out with friends, drunk texted him asking him to come see me for me to explain why I acted like that. He didn't come. They went to the motel by themselves, had a great night and she even said "I'm so hot, I understand why your friend hit on me that much". I texted her to say I'm sorry, she said it was fine. He said I acted like a rude men at a bar. I don't know what happened, I went crazy that day.
Plus: invited him to my birthday some days later, he didn't come and didn't bother to say anything before hands. Today I only know I'm blocked everywhere.
That's probably my most embarrassing story, but I have so many others, mostly envolving alcohol, so my advice: know your limits (I still don't know mine and keep fucking everything up frequently)
Hope it helped!
