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alanitis

alanitis

Enough with the optimism
Jul 9, 2020
18
Share your any one of your dream that you wanted to see coming true but can't and also tell the reason (if you want to)

I'll start.

My one dream was to go ice-skating with my girlfriend and have the best time because we don't know how to do it and will keep falling and laughing at each other (but it won't ever come true because the distance my dark thoughts and uncontrollable insecurities created between us can't be repaired.)
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,442
Moving to another country and living an independent life. My dream was always to live in Spain.
 
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Sinai Silence

Sinai Silence

I think I'ma die alone inside my room
Jul 6, 2020
810
To go scuba diving in the great barrier reef but I'll never be able to afford to go out there and the reef is quickly dying due to bleaching.
 
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alanitis

alanitis

Enough with the optimism
Jul 9, 2020
18
Moving to another country and living an independent life. My dream was always to live in Spain.
I think you would like listening "I Took a Pill in Ibiza" while taking a pill in Ibiza ?
To go scuba diving in the great barrier reef but I'll never be able to afford to go out there and the reef is quickly dying due to bleaching.
Sometimes I wish there was an alarm which when rings meant it's time up... sleep now.. Unrelated but it came to my mind.
 
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mediocre

trapped here
Nov 9, 2019
1,442
I think you would like listening "I Took a Pill in Ibiza" while taking a pill in Ibiza ?

Sometimes I wish there was an alarm which when rings meant it's time up... sleep now.. Unrelated but it came to my mind.
No not there that's the party place.. and I don't take pills :O-_-
 
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Tereon

Tereon

Member
Jul 22, 2020
55
Moving to another country and living an independent life. My dream was always to live in Spain.

I really would like that! I hate living here. Moreover, I would like to get a girlfriend, get married, become an electrical engineer and living a peaceful life.
 
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FriendofDeath

FriendofDeath

Elementalist
May 22, 2020
833
My dream would be to see my son graduate and find himself a field he loved. This can never come true in this lifetime because he passed away.

I'd still like to write and sell either a screenplay or book. Haven't quite given up on this yet!
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
To have enough money to live off of the rest of my life and to buy my dream home on lots of acres of land far away from people...I always wanted my own home.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I've never had just one dream. It's more like a series of dreams that have been crushed one by one. I've stopped dreaming altogether now.
 
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XYZ

XYZ

I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
Jul 22, 2020
800
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Eternal Pessimist

Eternal Pessimist

Student
Oct 16, 2019
179
Moving to another country and living an independent life. My dream was always to live in Spain.
My dream would be to move to another country where no one knows me and make a complete break with the past and my current life. However, I don't have the resources to move and establish myself somewhere else. Even if I did have the money and skills I don't think I could ever truly escape my past, because I am a product of it. Even in a new environment around new people the same self-destructive patterns would appear and I'm sure I would mess it all up again.
 
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Funkymonks

Member
Jul 23, 2020
58
To marry the person I should have
 
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Rn110bg101

Rn110bg101

I want to go home
Apr 18, 2019
412
To move to America and live with my friend and their roommates. To have told her that I did really want her to help and be there for me, and listened to her. To make new friends and be happy.

Impossible because she's gone, and I traumatized her by talking about my issues and being a stubborn idiot about them.
(Although I guess that's best. She won't have to deal with me or my death now.)
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,883
I have many dreams that I wish and want to happen, but sadly, in reality, they won't happen or 'realistically' become attainable. These are additional reasons for my wanting to CTB. With that said, I will share one of many dreams I had that I wanted to achieve but couldn't.

One of my dreams is to find someone who possesses such a rare, but useless talent (useless in the sense that it has no real world application or value) and willing to make love (including intercourse) with me, but the odds of those two things becoming a reality is pretty much close to nil. This is not something I can accept (nor wish to) and is an additional reason for me to want to end my suffering (on top of all other existing reasons). I suppose you could consider that I have a 'fetish' for that specific talent and there is one person that I know of who is capable of pushing said talent to such incredible levels, but sadly, she wouldn't want to make love with me, which I respect her decision.
 
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alanitis

alanitis

Enough with the optimism
Jul 9, 2020
18
My dream would be to see my son graduate and find himself a field he loved. This can never come true in this lifetime because he passed away.

I'd still like to write and sell either a screenplay or book. Haven't quite given up on this yet!
I'm sorry to hear that and my deepest condolences.
My dream would be to move to another country where no one knows me and make a complete break with the past and my current life. However, I don't have the resources to move and establish myself somewhere else. Even if I did have the money and skills I don't think I could ever truly escape my past, because I am a product of it. Even in a new environment around new people the same self-destructive patterns would appear and I'm sure I would mess it all up again.
It's a like you refreshed a page and now it's back to the start.
Impossible because she's gone, and I traumatized her by talking about my issues and being a stubborn idiot about them.
(Although I guess that's best. She won't have to deal with me or my death now.)
Somewhat similar to my relationship with my GF. I don't think it will be back to what it was and I just love her to much to let go.
 
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draw a circle

out.
Apr 10, 2020
300
To be rich. That's literally all I wanted in life lol my other dreams are basically what I would do if I was rich. Don't even have to be CEO rich I just want to be able to eat good food without having to save for days, have some nice gadgets (phone and laptop that I could use for real), and buy things I want that I don't need. I mean, even if I got a job I would just be merely surviving, not enough to have fun in life. I don't actually know if I could achieve this or not, but seems unlikely in this economy.

Also, moving to UK and get a civil partnership with my friend. This is complicated and would cost a whole thread lol so I'll pass for now
 
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Deleted member 17949

Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
2,238
Wanted to get good GCSE grades. It was a really simple thing and I should have been able to manage, but I screwed up and can't go back.
 
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Notwinnernotawin

Notwinnernotawin

Specialist
Apr 4, 2020
341
Be free and independent.
 
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Abgrundanziehung

Abgrundanziehung

or Abi for short
Jun 24, 2020
216
I wanted to travel and see parts of the world on foot, backpacking and horseback riding through beautiful places. My joints say no now.
 
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netrezven

Mage
Dec 13, 2018
515
I wanna physicaly meet one specific person, but she's not in this world yet. It's crazy, but still a dream.
 
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Isadeth

Isadeth

Visionary
Jun 12, 2020
2,538
My dream that could never come true is that my family is completely whole. That my children that passed are with us and loving their little brothers. I wish with every fiber of my being that could happen. I wish a had a time machine. Ugh I wish I had a time machine. :(
 
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so tired or manic

so tired or manic

Arcanist
Jun 12, 2020
462
I don't dream too often and if it proves impossible I move on and forget. I have goals, like moving to specific places, but I can't write it off as impossible yet.
 
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WillOxyWork

WillOxyWork

Student
Jul 4, 2020
126
I wish a had a time machine. Ugh I wish I had a time machine. :(
This thought is constantly torturing me. I just want to go back to where I screwed up and undo it. To save my health, and to save my relationship.
 
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Isadeth

Isadeth

Visionary
Jun 12, 2020
2,538
This thought is constantly torturing me. I just want to go back to where I screwed up and undo it. To save my health, and to save my relationship.
Same. if only, right? So many things could be fixed and be as they should. And even if not technically as they should, they'd be better for those that could use it to their advantage.
 
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AnxietyAttack44

I just wanna go to my husband already.
Jun 5, 2020
1,092
Living a long happy life with my husband and dying of old age together.
It will never come true because he died so early.
 
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