Unseelie
Member
- Mar 31, 2025
- 12
I want to hear from people on love. How they experience it. Just what it means to those struggling with... this.
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September. Lasted a couple months. First time I was in love since I was 17.
I've been with a lot of people and had many girlfriends but only in true life twice very short lived.
I stayed with people I wasn't sure of too long, and thise I really liked I was too needy and insecure
I've been with a lot of people and had many girlfriends but only in true life twice very short lived.
I stayed with people I wasn't sure of too long, and thise I really liked I was too needy and insecure
cemeteryismyhome
Warlock
- Mar 15, 2025
- 718
I'm not sure I actually really have. I used to think I did. But now I don't believe in it anymore. It was never reciprocal, because I'm a complete idiot in that area of life.
TheShadowQueen
≽^- ˕ -^≼
- Dec 5, 2023
- 223
I've only been in love once and it was 3 years ago it was complicated and I wasn't aware I had bpd at the time so it ended horribly. I still think about her consistently I think it's a mix of the bpd and her being my first everything that won't let me forget.
I'm not normal everything i feel is in extremes especially when im in love so I don't think my input would give you any good insight.
I'm not normal everything i feel is in extremes especially when im in love so I don't think my input would give you any good insight.
Vlad Tepes
Member
- Jun 24, 2025
- 61
I have a soul crushing desire to have a girlfriend and yet I cant say I have ever been in love in my entire life (and I have CERTAINLY NEVER experienced reciprocal love of any kind).
Unseelie
Member
- Mar 31, 2025
- 12
I think your input is as valuable as any other hun. Thank you for talking to me about it.
bankai
Enlightened
- Mar 16, 2025
- 1,980
I have never experienced love.Just too sad lol.I don't really want to involve anyone else in my bullshit.
I have 'liked' plenty of women.They have liked me in return. But I just can't do relationships.
I have 'liked' plenty of women.They have liked me in return. But I just can't do relationships.
nobodycaresaboutme
maybe my English kinda sucks
- Jun 30, 2025
- 40
now, with my mental health therapist (50 over female)
we've had sessions for 7 years. she never judged me even when i planed ctb or started opioid use. and i finally found i'm falling love. in the last December.
it's tough to admit that this love will never be reciprocated and i don't deserve her.
we've had sessions for 7 years. she never judged me even when i planed ctb or started opioid use. and i finally found i'm falling love. in the last December.
it's tough to admit that this love will never be reciprocated and i don't deserve her.
Average Joe
Forsaken One
- Nov 5, 2019
- 411
I'm so sorry, this hit hard.
I can't go on one of my ex's facebook or see a photo of her without having a full blown panic attack. Wish I could just see a photo of her without emotion
bankai
Enlightened
- Mar 16, 2025
- 1,980
That's pretty brutal. Especially because therapists aren't allowed to legally fall in love with their clients. Or have relationships with them. I'm sorry friend.
darksouls
Elementalist
- May 10, 2025
- 830
my ex-boyfriends treated me like trash
I have given up hope
I am too mentally and emotionally broken for a romantic relationship
I have given up hope
I am too mentally and emotionally broken for a romantic relationship
TheShadowQueen
≽^- ˕ -^≼
- Dec 5, 2023
- 223
Same I get the temptation to check her spam account but every time I do that it either sends me spiraling or I just get super depressed and start blaming myself again for fucking everything up
nobodycaresaboutme
maybe my English kinda sucks
- Jun 30, 2025
- 40
In my country (Japan) there is no such strict laws that ban love between mental health professionals and clients, I believe. But I know professional boundaries still exist and acting on this feeling will destroy even therapeutic relationships. thank you for caring about me
its been a few years since i even been interested in having sex...
i was in a relationship that ended about 4 years ago cant say i been in love after that. she was so fucking perfect but i fucked it up
she used to send me some snaps now and then a good while after it ended pretty sure i could have her back but i have schizoid PD and that manifested and become a big problem after thing ended and im not able to have much contact with people defiantly not intimate so i just ghosted all the snaps she sent me.
most symptoms from schizoid PD doesn't bother me becus the symptoms are what a schizoid wants but thinking back..
it sucks to have an idea about what life coud be if i wasent mentaly ill
fy faen i helvete din satans kattkuk hvor satans jævlig misserabelt livet mitt er
i was in a relationship that ended about 4 years ago cant say i been in love after that. she was so fucking perfect but i fucked it up
she used to send me some snaps now and then a good while after it ended pretty sure i could have her back but i have schizoid PD and that manifested and become a big problem after thing ended and im not able to have much contact with people defiantly not intimate so i just ghosted all the snaps she sent me.
most symptoms from schizoid PD doesn't bother me becus the symptoms are what a schizoid wants but thinking back..
it sucks to have an idea about what life coud be if i wasent mentaly ill
fy faen i helvete din satans kattkuk hvor satans jævlig misserabelt livet mitt er
Average Joe
Forsaken One
- Nov 5, 2019
- 411
I'm starting to love this woman I've been seeing for a month now, it's just hard to mask my emotions, especially with BPD, which amplifies everything.
I don't think I'd suffer as much if this relationship ended. Another ex of mine left me and broke my heart; it's bad to the point where I cannot see a photo of her without my brain going into flight mode. I wish I knew why my brain associates her as a danger or someone who could cause that reaction in my brain. I guess it's a mix of BPD and how the relationship ended.
I had an ex ctb last winter and it really messed me up, in fact, I don't think I will love anyone the same way I loved her, I know it might not be fair on my current girlfriend but it's weird to date after losing someone. There's a lot of guilt and shame involved.
I hope this answers your question and sorry it turned into a small vent. But that's my love life at the moment.
It was limerence- an obsessive crush and the last in a line of them. I finally quit doing that to myself in my early to mid thirties (about ten years ago.) There's a guy now I could get limerent over but, I'm keeping my resolve to not do it again. Overall, it messes me up too much.
cylus46
Member
- Jan 28, 2025
- 92
A few weeks ago. Asked her for her contacts this week got rejected :)
cme-dme
Ready to go to bed
- Feb 1, 2025
- 479
Hmm, probably about 4 years ago? 4 years ago was about when my first and only romantic relationship ended and I think it ruined love for me. I'm not upset about it though, if anything it was a harsh wake-up call that I think I needed at the time. I'm in too poor of a state mentally (and to some extent, physically) to maintain a healthy relationship and I'm not sure if that will ever change.
Magi129
a boomtown rats fan
- Oct 31, 2024
- 26
Afternoon of August 14th 2024 (seriously). Maybe specific but probably it was only the day I took notion of such feeling I was and still having. I was a VERY strange thing. I thought myself as some sort of iron hearted man in all regards to romantic love. But here I am, being in love for me is kind of horrible, so yaaaay!
Dejected 55
Mage
- May 7, 2025
- 515
Last year. I had given up on love entirely in my early thirties... but when I was 53 I met an amazing woman and got to know her over that next year. She is a little younger than I am. I was 54 last year and she was 40 when I told her I liked her. She basically ignored me after that. It broke me. I'm sparing the details because I've beat it to death... but it broke me. I fell hard for her and it was such an odd experience once I told her I was interested... and I just decided from that point that there was no reason for me to be here.
A few months ago, still so in love with him. I've had decent boyfriends before but no one comes close to him. He's everything I could ever ask for, he literally changed everything. Never talked to this many people before him (as someone with terrible social anxiety), never went out this much, never thought I'd be worthy of so much love yet he proves me wrong every single day. I know it seems weird to say this on a suicide forum, but whenever he's around he makes my will to live skyrocket. He's the kind of person that makes me want to stay alive just to make sure that he is happy and that no one will ever hurt him. Never really wanted to have a family before yet every time I look at him I imagine having babies just as cute as him. I imagine him treating them just as good as he treats me. He truly changed everything in the best way.
But the bad part of having something like this is that I would literally go insane if this ended. I'd 100% kill myself that same day. Technically a win win if you think about it
But the bad part of having something like this is that I would literally go insane if this ended. I'd 100% kill myself that same day. Technically a win win if you think about it
NonEssential
Hanging in there
- Jan 15, 2025
- 464
My self-esteem has always been so low that I can't help but dismiss any feelings of love or attraction I have. I wanted to befriend this girl I met at a hangout place for young adults, because I haven't had any physical friends in over a decade, but she very rarely messages with me so I assume she is not very interested, so I feel I'm just going to leave her alone.
