Story Where did I go wrong?

[Sick&TiredURGH]

Last October I went to A and E five days after taking an OD. This was on the advice of a GP.
I booked the GP appointment because my partner requested that I do so.
I'd also done an internet consultation, where the Dr on the website I was using advised me to go to a and e. I asked (this was three days after regaining consciousness) if I could still die and he said yes, entirely possible.

So my partner was aware that I had taken some kind of overdose, helped me to bed, from where I had collapsed on the floor but didn't call an ambulance.

I'm still unpicking that one, I am glad he didn't but also a mmmn, ok then...

So five days after regaining consciousness, my GP advises that I go to A and E and even offers to call an ambulance for me
Went to A and E, spent a day there had bloods run (slightly raised liver enzymes but nothing else wrong).

Several hours later I talked to the pysch person on duty and explained that I was thoroughly fed up and just wanted to go home and they let me leave.

A month later I was traveling to stay with family for an extended period and as I was going abroad, my GP gave me enough meds to cover that period of travel (six weeks or so).

Currently have enough amitriptyline in the house at the moment to open a small pharmacy.

But I want to know why my OD didn't work.
Took 20 or so amitriptyline, two bottles of wine, 20 cirtazine (sp antihistamine prescribed for vertigo) at least twenty melatonin and 50 MLS of Methadone.
As well as some Lyrica earlier in the day (I abuse this drug on a regular basis.)
I don't understand how I survived and really wish that the OD had worked.
Anyone able to give me an idea of why my OD didn't work?
I now understand that for Amitriptyline to be effective for ctbing the dose needs to be around 20mgs per kilo.
I think for my next attempt I will aim to take forty Amitriptyline as well as ten diphenhydramine. Taken first for the anti nausea effect.
And the melatonin (useless to use to OD on, I understand that now, but repeating the totally unaware of anything happening around me thing would be grand!!)
And then an hour after taking those (will be fighting unconscious at that point I imagine) I will eat parts of a yew tree.
But mostly this thread is about why didn't the drugs kill me last time?
Hopeful bump?

 

[TheLastK]

I have no idea why personally none of that makes much sense to me at all, from what I've heard OD is a pretty unreliable way to ctb, I've written it off my self personally.
Mainly replying bump in case anyone more knowledgeable can help you and to say I hope everything is ok with you and you find a good hopeful reason to not ctb.

 

[Unworthyoflove]

Last October I went to A and E five days after taking an OD. This was on the advice of a GP.
I booked the GP appointment because my partner requested that I do so.
I'd also done an internet consultation, where the Dr on the website I was using advised me to go to a and e. I asked (this was three days after regaining consciousness) if I could still die and he said yes, entirely possible.

So my partner was aware that I had taken some kind of overdose, helped me to bed, from where I had collapsed on the floor but didn't call an ambulance.

I'm still unpicking that one, I am glad he didn't but also a mmmn, ok then...

So five days after regaining consciousness, my GP advises that I go to A and E and even offers to call an ambulance for me
Went to A and E, spent a day there had bloods run (slightly raised liver enzymes but nothing else wrong).

Several hours later I talked to the pysch person on duty and explained that I was thoroughly fed up and just wanted to go home and they let me leave.

A month later I was traveling to stay with family for an extended period and as I was going abroad, my GP gave me enough meds to cover that period of travel (six weeks or so).

Currently have enough amitriptyline in the house at the moment to open a small pharmacy.

But I want to know why my OD didn't work.
Took 20 or so amitriptyline, two bottles of wine, 20 cirtazine (sp antihistamine prescribed for vertigo) at least twenty melatonin and 50 MLS of Methadone.
As well as some Lyrica earlier in the day (I abuse this drug on a regular basis.)
I don't understand how I survived and really wish that the OD had worked.
Anyone able to give me an idea of why my OD didn't work?
I now understand that for Amitriptyline to be effective for ctbing the dose needs to be around 20mgs per kilo.
I think for my next attempt I will aim to take forty Amitriptyline as well as ten diphenhydramine. Taken first for the anti nausea effect.
And the melatonin (useless to use to OD on, I understand that now, but repeating the totally unaware of anything happening around me thing would be grand!!)
And then an hour after taking those (will be fighting unconscious at that point I imagine) I will eat parts of a yew tree.
But mostly this thread is about why didn't the drugs kill me last time?
Hopeful bump?

maybe it was too many different substances together. I heard that some substances lose some of their effect when taken together with certain others. good thing is, you seem to have access to lot of stuff. thats a lucky situation

 

[DemonicAngel]

It is really hard to OD off meds. I once took 90 2mg Xanax and by the time my mom found out (about an hr later) I was really sleepy but I was able to walk down my stairs and driveway to the ambulance without assistance. I take 200mgs of Methadone a day and even that didnt work on me when I over did it. I take 800mgs of gabapentin three times a day, still nothing. So I have given up on the idea of ODing. Now I have N and SN.

 

[Angi]

It must be very upsetting not to know why you are alive, I am sorry to hear this.

Did you read the corresponding chaper of the pph? I unfortunately do not know the answer to your question, but i suspect you could look up the differences between your protocol and the one in the pph and try to figure out which difference might be meaningful?

 

[Sick&TiredURGH]

Really new here, so ummmm PPH? Tried searching resources but nothing came up.
Gradually making my way through everything that comes up with a search of Amitriptyline.
But the underlying conclusion I have made is Amitriptyline would take to long for fear of being disturbed so I definitely need to incorporate Yew, as that has a much quicker action (I think...}

 

[Worndown]

Most large US libraries have a PDR (Physicians Desk Reference) where you can research the pharmacology of a medication. They give side effects and toxicity levels based on amount and weight. Once you get those facts, you work out your numbers. If you cannot find your medication, check prior years editions. Not everything is listed each year.

 

[LittleJem]

This thread could be useful: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/amitryptiline-cocktail-archive-wiki-extra-info.29464/

and this one: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/amitriptyline.44906/#post-1322959

And here is the cocktail recipe which gives the amounts needed: https://web.archive.org/web/20130702055555/http://ash2.wikkii.com/wiki/Amitriptyline_Cocktail

takes up to 36 hours to work...
(this was going to be my method, but I've decided to do a different one now...partly as I had the pills for so long and also because I want a faster method). The cocktail gives the recipe, but the earlier stuff talks e.g. about how to crush the pills and combine them, or put them in applesauce.

It's cardio-toxic so ideally with Benzos is better so you don't feel it.

 

[Sick&TiredURGH]

I don't get why people are talking about chrushing the Amitriptyline?
The first overdose I took at 17, I swallowed around a hundred pills, no problem. Then the one last October, I took around eighty pills plus the wine and methadone in liquid form, is there an added benefit to the pills being crushed?
Currently my plan is October.
Have a don't intervene with me medically form strapped to my chest (signed and witnessed).
Wait for partner to leave for work, he normally leaves around six am.
Call in sick to my workplace.
Take 10 Nytol/Unisom (anti emetic). Then take 20 melatonin and thirty to forty Amitriptyline then as I start to feel drowsy from those, quickly eat my premixed ice cream and yew parts.
Pass out.
Never come to again.
Does this sound like a plan?

 

[Sick&TiredURGH]

So did some further reading and can see that chrushing quickens the process of it entering your system.
Still think that 200 pills crushed and drink seems a bit excessive but am now planning to check into a hotel room for a couple of nights will tell my partner that I am going to stay with my parents.
Also did a deep dive into interactions that Amitriptyline has with other substances and now have two others alongside the diphenhydramine that I can add into the mix.
Feeling very prepared now, roll on October.