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infidelity37

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Oct 29, 2024
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I don't even know where to start.

My whole life has felt like a constant downward spiral. The lows are always so, so low, and the highs are always barely there. They're never high enough to justify the lows.

I never wanted to live this long. I wanted to end my life on my 21st birthday. I made horrible impulsive decisions to ruin my life to push myself further over the edge. To make sure I wouldn't chicken out and not do it.

I didn't do it.

Now im stuck facing the consequences of my self destructive actions. I'm in tons of debt that I can't afford to crawl out of. I lost my job, so I really can't fucking afford my rent, let alone the tens of thousands of dollars of debt I put myself in.

I also just lost my boyfriend and my best friend. He was all I had. He told that he was in love with me, that he needed me, that we were going to get married one day. I guess that was a lie.

He's the only support system I had.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what's the point of continuing living, when it feels like life is nothing but constant suffering. I rarely feel joy. I haven't been happy in ages. I don't even remember what feeling okay feels like.

Work and my boyfriend were all I had. The only things keeping me going. I lost both in the same week.

The only real thing keeping me alive is the fear that I'll fuck up and end up permanently disabled.

I wish I had done it when I planned.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
362
I been down the same road you are on. You got a job, a person who loves you, then BAM, it's all gone. Went from being a dream to a total nightmare.

She wiped my bank account dry, maxed out all my credit cards, and then she disappeared without saying a word.

I already promised myself it will never happen again. I'd rather be dead than go through another relationship.
 
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infidelity37

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Oct 29, 2024
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I been down the same road you are on. You got a job, a person who loves you, then BAM, it's all gone. Went from being a dream to a total nightmare.

She wiped my bank account dry, maxed out all my credit cards, and then she disappeared without saying a word.

I already promised myself it will never happen again. I'd rather be dead than go through another relationship.
I don't know what to do. It feels like there's no way to climb out of this one. I can't eat or sleep. My heart is pounding all the time.
 
reyonrays

reyonrays

Death brings peace, the ultimate release.
Oct 27, 2024
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Truly sorry to hear that, i know that debt alone can push alot of people of the edge.

I hope you get better and, as time passes, find at least some resolution in the future.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Existing also just feels like suffering to me and I also continue to suffer because of fear of trying to die going wrong, personally I find it terrifying how such could happen. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
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