dOm!n!K
Skinwalker
- Nov 28, 2023
- 13
I feel so awkward posting something here and not lurking like always but I've never been more alone and in need to get something off my chest before I can get rid of myself. My mother might be the worst that ever happened to me and I would trade that woman for anyone else if only I had a choice. I assume that when I'll be already gone she'll be surprised I took my own life, and tell everyone she did everything she could to prevent it. So many abusive parents do that. But why are they surprised it happened if days prior their child was barely getting out of the bed, harming themselves, not eating, failing school and actually screaming at them that they want to kill themselves? All I got as a reaction was the worst yelling I ever had, calling me names, then her victim complex turned on and she thought I'd react when she told me "then maybe I'll kill myself?" as if I wasn't wishing for her death everyday. And today a tantrum that she'll move out because she is so tired of me. I ask for help I'm stuck with "it's too expensive, you don't need it." I voice all the problems I have and I'm silenced. She has all the signs that her child isn't okay and she's just ignoring them. Just like most people in my life. So if they'll be surprised once I'm gone, why? Why are so many people surprised when signs are THAT obvious?