Help Why do hospitals turn me away for hesitating to admit the exact time I want to CTB?

[Notlikeforte]

I'll occasionally get brought by police to a hospital for evaluation and every time I get sent there I tell them I plan to CTB(with extreme details of a method) but refuse to say when I will act. Then they give me a quick glare and say I need to try X thing(i.e. yoga) and go home.
Do they really think sending me home means I won't CTB?
I'm afraid I'll find myself in a momentary crisis and not get the help I need, as my therapist refuses to see me more than 45 minutes a week and takes 3 days to answer a voicemail to talk to me for just 5 minutes max. I just wanna give them one last chance to help me but it feels like maybe the world just thinks I don't deserve it for all the ills I've done towards past friends...

 

[SufferingInDenmark]

they said yoga? hahahahahhahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D
i love it, omg.
yoga, yeah---
no, yoga is great actually, but as a fucking suicide prevention method?

sorry i can't say much to help, maybe try switching to some more competent people, if possible.

and i know all about doctors taking 3 days to reply with like 2 sentences, i live in europe.

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's probably in their paperwork that they need to answer whether you are at immediate risk. Do you want them to section you though? I imagine saying- maybe the next half hour would do that.

Is it concern that they won't be available if you suddenly have the urge? I'm guessing a call to a helpline would alert police, who would take you to the psyche ward. Is that where the cycle repeats though? What would you ideally like to happen?

Have you told your therapist or doctor that you feel like you need more support? If it's more like regular support you want rather than being fully sectioned, I would have thought they should be able to advise on that.

It is quite weird though. During my welfair check, I made it clear that I bought SN with the intention of killing myself but- I emphasized it was a future plan. Obviously, they were reluctant to leave. They were actually nice- to be fair. But one of them actually said- we don't want to leave you and you take your own life in the next couple of weeks. I assured them that wouldn't happen but, it was kind of funny. Like a liability thing maybe. So- if I leave it a few weeks and then do it- that's ok?

The helpline they put me in touch with were even weirder. After guilt tripping me with: 'Think what it would do to your family', they touched on mental capacity. I was furious inside because I believe I do have full mental capacity. I did remain calm but they tried to get me to promise to call them before I used it. I just find that weird. Like- you're questioning my mental capacity now maybe but, also at some random future point. Why assume I'm incompetent at either point?

Also, my feelings are different to yours really in that, I wouldn't want someone to try and stop me if I tried to do it. (So, why would I even call a prevention line?) Honestly, I don't really belong in 'recovery' in spirit but, some threads still interest me.

It really frustrates me when people who are crying out for help, don't seem to receive it though. I really hope they start doing more for you.

Ultimately though, I feel like it's all check boxes now. Does this person exhibit this and this and this- then the computer thinks you're not at risk and, we don't have the resources spare to help.... Go do some breathing exercises. Namaste.

 

[nobeertonight]

I'll occasionally get brought by police to a hospital for evaluation and every time I get sent there I tell them I plan to CTB(with extreme details of a method) but refuse to say when I will act. Then they give me a quick glare and say I need to try X thing(i.e. yoga) and go home.
Do they really think sending me home means I won't CTB?
I'm afraid I'll find myself in a momentary crisis and not get the help I need, as my therapist refuses to see me more than 45 minutes a week and takes 3 days to answer a voicemail to talk to me for just 5 minutes max. I just wanna give them one last chance to help me but it feels like maybe the world just thinks I don't deserve it for all the ills I've done towards past friends...

You should seriously consider changing your therapist as they don't seem to be very professional. It's probably a pain to start over and finding a new one but it's for the better.
Hospitals, emergency numbers and similar are notoriously incompetent regarding suicide.