Why do ideations seem compelling? like a mission

[Jeebo5021]

I've been having ideations that come and go for what seems like two months. I don't even want them, but they are there. It's like I've got an assignment to do and I don't want to do it, but I've got to do it sometime. Like there's a job application to do and the end date is hanging over my head. It's still possible that I could just one day say "I don't want to do the assignment" or "I don't want to do the application". But catching the bus just seems natural, like I have to do it and I should do it, like it's the right thing to do , even though I don't want to.