Venting why do we have to suffer when others enjoy life

[333.333]

After being sick in my mental health for two years (years of taking pills, going to several doctors, trying to be active, etc) I decided to do the hardest step for me to feel better which was coming back to my country so that I could have a better treatment and the attentions from my parents. Is awful but I get it and im really grateful of having the support of my family and acces to a psychiatrist and psychologist and medication. This time I couldnt screw up, right? my parents are here to watch me take my pills everyday, to see me go to the gym everyday, to take me to my doctors and help me in general. When i tought i was doing a little bit better, I started feeling bad again; i just took one step forward and then took the same step behind AND I DONT GET IT. IM DOING EVERYTHING MY DOCTORS TELL ME TO DO, IM BEING ACTIVE, IM ON A SPECIAL DIET FOR MY ANEMIA, IM SLEEPING ANG WAKING UP EARLY, I WRITE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS SO THAT I CAN SHARE THE DETAILS WITH THE DOCTORS. THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN, I DONT ENJOY DOING ANYTHING I USED TO LIKE, IM WORST THAN EVER WITH MY PARTNER AND THAT IS NOT THE PROBLEM ANYWAY, I JUST. FEEL. BAD. I JUST DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING.

Before this post I decided not to think in a negative way so I decided to do some work and I was stable. That so I could be better to my appointment with my psychologist, hahaha i also had psychiatrist and he fucking cancelled me. I was waiting to talk to her and see what I could do and guess what... she also cancelled me. Why is the same people that are supossed to help me the same that turn their back to me for stupid reasons!!! I know is not their fault but all-i-can-thik-about-is

why people like us have to suffer and feel so bad, so bad that no one understands the feeling. that we prefer to have a physical sickness before this shit, or at least I do cause I've been on 3 surgeries and a lot of random sickness. I want to know WHAT DID I DO to deserve this. WHAT KARMA AM I PAYING??? I can say with all seriousness that I am a good person, i treat everyone with respect, i gve second OR MORE chances, i dont get mad, i always try to help the people around me. THEN WHY IS THERE A PERCENTAGE OF PEOPLE, US, THAT FEELS SO FUCKING BAD EVERY DAY AND IT DOESNT MATTER HOW MUCH PILLS WE TAKE, WE STILL FEEL SO FUCKING BAD BUT THERES PEOPLE A}OUT THERE THAT ARE EVIL AND THEY ENJOY LIFE EVERY DAMN SECOND OD THEIR LIFE. LIFE IS A BUNCK OF UNFAIR BULLSHIT. SHOULD I BE SAD THE REST OF MY LIFE? DO I HAVE TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE TO STOP THIS SUFFERING? WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO DO CAUSE THE "RIGHT WAY" ISNT WORKING AND IM TIRED, IM JUST SO TIRED I WANNA BE NORMAL GOD PLEASE CAN I BE NORMAL

 

[wiggy]

It's kind of hard to comment without falling into the tired "life isn't fair" platitude. But I think it's easy to fall into the trap of thinking that a good life experience is the default human state, and we were just unlucky to be riddled with debilitating mental or physical disease, poverty or some other kind of terrible circumstance.

I would offer up that the vast majority of people alive right now aren't exactly having a good time of it. The median standard of living outside of North America and Europe is somewhere between not good and miserable. If we consider the lives of people outside of recent history, things are far worse still. And if you really want to go all the way, you could include the lives of non human animals. All of this is to say, living a happy and meaningful life seems to be the anomaly rather than the other way around. It doesn't have to be all doom and gloom though - an optimist in your situation might take this viewpoint and consider that, despite all their troubles, they still have a far greater chance of living a fulfilling life than most other people who are miserable.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

You can be happy if you're willing to be a criminal or a selfish degenerate. Being a good person in this day and age only gets you trampled on.

 

[SadFoxDreamer83]

After being sick in my mental health for two years (years of taking pills, going to several doctors, trying to be active, etc) I decided to do the hardest step for me to feel better which was coming back to my country so that I could have a better treatment and the attentions from my parents. Is awful but I get it and im really grateful of having the support of my family and acces to a psychiatrist and psychologist and medication. This time I couldnt screw up, right? my parents are here to watch me take my pills everyday, to see me go to the gym everyday, to take me to my doctors and help me in general. When i tought i was doing a little bit better, I started feeling bad again; i just took one step forward and then took the same step behind AND I DONT GET IT. IM DOING EVERYTHING MY DOCTORS TELL ME TO DO, IM BEING ACTIVE, IM ON A SPECIAL DIET FOR MY ANEMIA, IM SLEEPING ANG WAKING UP EARLY, I WRITE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS SO THAT I CAN SHARE THE DETAILS WITH THE DOCTORS. THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN, I DONT ENJOY DOING ANYTHING I USED TO LIKE, IM WORST THAN EVER WITH MY PARTNER AND THAT IS NOT THE PROBLEM ANYWAY, I JUST. FEEL. BAD. I JUST DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING.

Before this post I decided not to think in a negative way so I decided to do some work and I was stable. That so I could be better to my appointment with my psychologist, hahaha i also had psychiatrist and he fucking cancelled me. I was waiting to talk to her and see what I could do and guess what... she also cancelled me. Why is the same people that are supossed to help me the same that turn their back to me for stupid reasons!!! I know is not their fault but all-i-can-thik-about-is

why people like us have to suffer and feel so bad, so bad that no one understands the feeling. that we prefer to have a physical sickness before this shit, or at least I do cause I've been on 3 surgeries and a lot of random sickness. I want to know WHAT DID I DO to deserve this. WHAT KARMA AM I PAYING??? I can say with all seriousness that I am a good person, i treat everyone with respect, i gve second OR MORE chances, i dont get mad, i always try to help the people around me. THEN WHY IS THERE A PERCENTAGE OF PEOPLE, US, THAT FEELS SO FUCKING BAD EVERY DAY AND IT DOESNT MATTER HOW MUCH PILLS WE TAKE, WE STILL FEEL SO FUCKING BAD BUT THERES PEOPLE A}OUT THERE THAT ARE EVIL AND THEY ENJOY LIFE EVERY DAMN SECOND OD THEIR LIFE. LIFE IS A BUNCK OF UNFAIR BULLSHIT. SHOULD I BE SAD THE REST OF MY LIFE? DO I HAVE TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE TO STOP THIS SUFFERING? WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO DO CAUSE THE "RIGHT WAY" ISNT WORKING AND IM TIRED, IM JUST SO TIRED I WANNA BE NORMAL GOD PLEASE CAN I BE NORMAL

I think that there are simply people like us who do not feel happy in this world, or who cannot feel happy in the system that is in place. I have seen many testimonies of people who were terribly unhappy and changed their lifestyle and are now happy. I mean that many people do not manage to be happy in the system. But the same system that makes us unhappy also prevents us from trying other types of life.

 

[howunfortunateforme]

After being sick in my mental health for two years (years of taking pills, going to several doctors, trying to be active, etc) I decided to do the hardest step for me to feel better which was coming back to my country so that I could have a better treatment and the attentions from my parents. Is awful but I get it and im really grateful of having the support of my family and acces to a psychiatrist and psychologist and medication. This time I couldnt screw up, right? my parents are here to watch me take my pills everyday, to see me go to the gym everyday, to take me to my doctors and help me in general. When i tought i was doing a little bit better, I started feeling bad again; i just took one step forward and then took the same step behind AND I DONT GET IT. IM DOING EVERYTHING MY DOCTORS TELL ME TO DO, IM BEING ACTIVE, IM ON A SPECIAL DIET FOR MY ANEMIA, IM SLEEPING ANG WAKING UP EARLY, I WRITE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS SO THAT I CAN SHARE THE DETAILS WITH THE DOCTORS. THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE SHIT AGAIN, I DONT ENJOY DOING ANYTHING I USED TO LIKE, IM WORST THAN EVER WITH MY PARTNER AND THAT IS NOT THE PROBLEM ANYWAY, I JUST. FEEL. BAD. I JUST DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING.

Before this post I decided not to think in a negative way so I decided to do some work and I was stable. That so I could be better to my appointment with my psychologist, hahaha i also had psychiatrist and he fucking cancelled me. I was waiting to talk to her and see what I could do and guess what... she also cancelled me. Why is the same people that are supossed to help me the same that turn their back to me for stupid reasons!!! I know is not their fault but all-i-can-thik-about-is

why people like us have to suffer and feel so bad, so bad that no one understands the feeling. that we prefer to have a physical sickness before this shit, or at least I do cause I've been on 3 surgeries and a lot of random sickness. I want to know WHAT DID I DO to deserve this. WHAT KARMA AM I PAYING??? I can say with all seriousness that I am a good person, i treat everyone with respect, i gve second OR MORE chances, i dont get mad, i always try to help the people around me. THEN WHY IS THERE A PERCENTAGE OF PEOPLE, US, THAT FEELS SO FUCKING BAD EVERY DAY AND IT DOESNT MATTER HOW MUCH PILLS WE TAKE, WE STILL FEEL SO FUCKING BAD BUT THERES PEOPLE A}OUT THERE THAT ARE EVIL AND THEY ENJOY LIFE EVERY DAMN SECOND OD THEIR LIFE. LIFE IS A BUNCK OF UNFAIR BULLSHIT. SHOULD I BE SAD THE REST OF MY LIFE? DO I HAVE TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE TO STOP THIS SUFFERING? WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO DO CAUSE THE "RIGHT WAY" ISNT WORKING AND IM TIRED, IM JUST SO TIRED I WANNA BE NORMAL GOD PLEASE CAN I BE NORMAL

Bc you took Psych meds Thay fuck with your brown permanently

 

[UglyLife82]

I get what you mean. It's just not fair. I get so upset thinking about how unfair life is and how I got the short stick. I rolled a bad hand in the genetic lottery and now I have to suffer

 

[Rational man]

Im really sorry to hear about your suffering. Ive arrived at the point where I believe that everyone is suffering or is embattled at some level. It occured to me that some people approach it with a mindset that enables them to deal with suffering, or at least keep it very much to themselves and just accept it. I dont do suffering very well because i became attached to good health, both physical and mentally. When i became sick physically, i was devastated by my new found limitation and i spent much time reflecting on ' why me' and ' its not fair'. I realised that what i have could affect anyone at any time, but because life is chaotic, random and uncertain, I was dealt the shit card. I know some other people who seem to manage ' suffering ' better than me so yes, theres alot of suffering everywhere.

 

[divinemistress36]

"You exsist not because you failed but because you exsist"

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

I don't know why people like us have to suffer and feel so bad. I don't even know if I should count myself in this equation. But I suppose I should, given my desire for my own death.

And yes. There are definitely evil people out there enjoying every second of their lives, often torturing others. I guess that just shows you the kind of world it is. If only the evil people thrive here, then it is an evil world. All the more reason to leave it. Survival of the worst.

The greatest irony for myself was that when I was evil everyone wanted to help me. Now that I'm good, everyone wants to hurt me. Hilarious.

If you want to be normal, do everything within your power to become normal. I know you are. I mean continue to do so. Stack the deck so much in your favor that it's impossible to lose. There is a way out there somehow. You can find it. Technology advances, and it will advance very rapidly here soon. Solutions never thought of before will come to the forefront.

I never believed in psychiatric pills. Only for the most severe cases. I feel like they usually cause more harm than good, imo.

 

[Darkover]

Suffering and enjoyment aren't distributed fairly—some people seem to go through life with minimal hardship, while others face constant struggles. A lot of it comes down to luck: where you're born, who your parents are, your health, financial status, and even random events that shape your life.

Society also plays a role. Some people benefit from the way things are set up, while others are trapped in cycles of suffering due to poverty, illness, or trauma. And unfortunately, many who are comfortable don't think much about those who aren't.

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

Suffering and enjoyment aren't distributed fairly—some people seem to go through life with minimal hardship, while others face constant struggles. A lot of it comes down to luck: where you're born, who your parents are, your health, financial status, and even random events that shape your life.

Society also plays a role. Some people benefit from the way things are set up, while others are trapped in cycles of suffering due to poverty, illness, or trauma. And unfortunately, many who are comfortable don't think much about those who aren't.

Also due to lifestyle creep, we are never really satisfied with what we have; so, it always seems like what we have is insufficient to justify our suffering. Meanwhile, there are millions living in objectively abject poverty conditions, and exactly like you mention, we don't think about them usually

 

[Electra]

"You exsist not because you failed but because you exsist"

Because parents decided they need a kid

 

[divinemistress36]

Because parents decided they need a kid

Yep!

 

[dontwakemeup]

Everyone has a story. Just because people seem to be enjoying life, doesn't mean it's true. You never know what others have overcome. I think life is partly how we handle situations.

 

[Electra]

Yep!

Imagine someone else deciding on your existence... Literally no one asked to be here, we're here because of the decisions made by other people.

 

[divinemistress36]

Imagine someone else deciding on your existence... Literally no one asked to be here, we're here because of the decisions made by other people.

Im an antinatalist to