Why does CTB have to be so difficult?

[rllysuper]

i feel like it's so much harder to die on purpose than when it's by accident. there's so many barriers put in place, either by government regulations or human biology, that make it so frustratingly difficult. sometimes i hate how resistant my body is to just dying. i've had two pathetic attempts in 2021, and since then life hasn't really gotten that much better for me. i'm hoping if i can get my hands on some SN i can finally be put to rest.

 

[Namelesa]

fluffing pro-lifers limiting access to methods as much as possible and our own bodies making so difficult cus of survival instincts being drilled into how we work. Its makes me feel so trapped that everything is preventing me to ctb and so I have to continue with my torturous life.

 

[Tig]

It's hard,
Cause it has to that way, the "Hard" makes it worth it,
When we "feel" like we do, some of us weren't meant for this existence, even though we were Born to it.
Nothing worth doing is easy in the end, even if it's death.

 

[Richard Langford]

I suppose if you're willing to except considerable potential pain it isn't. Like in front of a train or off a building. I don't fancy either and just want pain free and simple - so I'm looking at Opiates or synthetics. For someone my age sourcing suchlike is difficult. Don't younger people all have at least one acquaintance that could 'hook them up'?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Two reasons:
1. The survival instinct is very strong because evolution has created an addiction within the human brain of "I need to continue living, I need to continue living, I need to continue living".
2. Pro lifers have went out their way to restrict the painless suicide methods leaving people with only painful or risky methods which in turn causes them to either take the risk and fail horrifically or don't attempt at all in fear of the risks. Plus, they have made assisting somebody with suicide illegal which is also a detriment to most people since the majority of people are used to doing things in groups.

 

[L'absent]

Because we have convinced ourselves that it is difficult. In many cultures it was as normal as drinking a glass of water. Socrates could have saved himself, but he decides to drink the hemlock at all costs, because the value of the laws was the most important thing for him. So he refused to continue living.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it's just so cruel and horrible to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again. I see so much cruelty in how painless death with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony is denied even know this existence was imposed in the first place, I'd never wish for the futile, torturous burden of human existence rather I just want to not exist instead, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as so undesirable.

 

[comfortinbooks]

You are planning you own murder and you don't wanna get caught.

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

I agree with you, it seems very difficult - as we're talking about painless methods of suicide. On the other hand, there are available methods that can't be controlled, such as rope, buildings and railways.

My problem, tbh, is thinking a lot about the suffering of other ppl. I fear some get really sad, depressive or even try suicide themselves, but I've come to conclude that existing just for minimize others pain, while I'm dead alive and gave up completely, isn't an option - I'm not a martyr.