SomewhereAlongThe
Student
- May 17, 2024
- 128
There are people that are much better looking, wealthier, healthier and far ahead in life. Meanwhile I just lay here in bed everyday for the past 9 months trying to figure out what I'm good at, but I've come up with nothing. I'm cursed with Autism and Bipolar. A lot of who I am is predetermined by my genetic makeup. That's awful and unfair, and yea well life is unfair I get it, but it doesn't hurt any less. Watching other people tread around with their blessings and talents breaks my heart. I thought maybe I'll be altruistic and help others, but I don't think my heart is big enough to give and get nothing in return. I've tried comforting people on the suicide watch subreddit but it feels empty. Nobody really responds and lets you know you helped them. Maybe I'm expecting too much, which means It's not meant for me in the first place.
Existence is plagued with inequalities for the sake of evolutionary advantage, unfortunately it is survival of the fittest, and I am not fit enough to continue to carry out a miserable existence.
Existence is plagued with inequalities for the sake of evolutionary advantage, unfortunately it is survival of the fittest, and I am not fit enough to continue to carry out a miserable existence.