Why? is the greatest question you could ask a god?

[Surai]

why do I keep trying when all ive tried hasnt worked. why should I keep moving when all I end up is where I left. why do I look for a point when It doesnt make sense. Why do I look for an end when the string is in a loop. the fabrics interweaved all carelessly. and placed on the floor. Why I keep looking for signs when its just a coincedence. Why should I try to win when Im so good at losing. Why do I ask when I know the answer. Why does this keep happening. Why did it have to be like this? Why do I bother. Why should I live when I can not be. The endless tunes of an echo ring out. And Im just feeding a brain. Its all the same, everyday. When All I need is a will more powerful then All I need. Why do I revert to animalistic thoughts. Why do I get uncertain about uncertainties Because that is what I am. uncertain and dying

 

[delacs]

Hey, this one hit a few deep spots and I'm resonating with it, so I'm just going to reply to a few parts. Regardless of what I say or think, I just want to wish you peace and wellness with your life/decisions, wherever they lead you.

why do I keep trying when all ive tried hasnt worked

I believe it's the "force of life" or crudely put, "survival". There's so much pressure put on us by society and our own biology, against our better wishes and conscious.

why should I keep moving when all I end up is where I left

No one can answer for you, perhaps no one should either (who's to say), but what I can say is I hope you find peace/what you're looking for.

Why should I try to win when Im so good at losing

In my opinion, society forced this on us. There's this belief that we'll all "rise up" out of the struggles and "make it" (financially/romantically) etc, and it seems like no one is willing to account for those that can't.