Wish I could kill myself right now

[purplesky9]

If I couldn't kill myself today I would do it right now. But I can't something always goes wrong to stop me. I feel like god if he's real must hate me. He's doing everything he can to stop me from succeeding. It must be because I prayed to be able to kill myself. I just wish I had a method I could rely on. I need to die soon because I'm going to lose my job and I might not be able to get a benefit so I will have no money soon.

 

[DTA]

I really emphasize with you about feeling like God is thwarting you.
I wish you the best no matter what you do!

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry for your situation
is it not possible for you to find a new job?

 

[purplesky9]

I am very sorry for your situation
is it not possible for you to find a new job?

No I think I'm going to be fired so I won't have a reference and I left my job before that on bad terms stupidly. I really regret it.

 

[Alexandra0]

I would also like to die right now. But I can't do it yet for several reasons. But I hope that death has already turned its gaze on me

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I just wish to be gone as well, to not exist is all I hope for, I just wish to be permanently free from this cruel, torturous existence, I hope you find the relief you search for.