Discussion Would you rather get murdered or ctb?

[EternalShore]

Getting murdered can also be like~ dying in a car crash, dying in a war, etc.~

I'd rather get murdered tbh because I won't cause my parents a bunch of guilt and more controversially because it's not a sin~ :)

 

[Cavalcade]

Murdered, I'd think. Perhaps not particularly at the hands of someone specifically seeking to kill me- something more abstract like a car crash (which would be incredibly funny in an 'open at the close' sort of way with my trauma history). As long as it was quick and thorough- then the idea of having that sense of control (and thus, responsibility to properly see it through) taken out of my hands is weirdly calming.

It would also be far easier for my loved ones to cope with- my brother and childhood best friend have both lost people close to them from suicide, and it's devastated them. It's painful to think of compounding their own trauma with the subject: and they've both expressed directly to me that it would hurt them badly if I killed myself. So, being offed in some other fashion- well, it would still be rough on them, I imagine, but easier to swallow than my suicide.

 

[InversedShadow]

I would feel bad in both cases, getting just slain would feel like such a waste, not being strong enough to overcome what was coming, dying in a dumb car crash while there were greater things to do and achieve, atleast in a war it would be for the Nation.. I bet though that if I died because of any reason I will just feel guilt in the end, because I didn't fulfill my purpose and lost the vision that the past me wanted me to have. All things considered though I agree, cbt really would make my family feel bad too, what would be a shame

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't really consider accidental death murder. But even so- not all accidental deaths are clean. You can be trapped inside a car after a crash and die slowly. I definitely wouldn't want to be at the hands of a murderer. So- I'd prefer to go via my own hands to have at least some control over it. Of course, if it was instant death via murder or accident, then great.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I think it depends on which methods that would be used in both cases. If I were to get slowly and brutally stabbed to death by somebody whereas I could have took SN, I would choose to ctb with the SN. However, if I were to get shot at the back of my head without me knowing about it, I'd say that is the best thing that could happen to me hence I'd choose to get murdered. It really does depend on how I go out

 

[HarryCobean]

Murdered because that way I wouldn't have to do anything. Since everybody's agreed the world would be a better place without me in it, you'd think somebody would just do the right thing and remove me. But no.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Being murdered doesn't sound peaceful. I wouldn't say accidents are "murder" but if I die in an accident and I don't have to suffer (almost instant death) this would be acceptable.

 

[shrizoid]

Murdered, mainly because of a fear a torturous afterlife if I do ctb

 

[Namelesa]

I would rather be murdered, accidentally or consently killed so I won't have to put the effort in to ctb and can't have SI stop me if someone else is killing me.

 

[LostLily]

I don't want anyone getting angry at me after I die so accidental death sounds appealing. But I'm afraid it might not be quick and painless.

At least If ctb, I can choose a method that is relatively quick and painless

 

[Tuonetar_]

I want to be in control of my final moments, so I would rather CTB.

 

[leloyon]

Think I'd rather CTB. Only if something like a civil war broke out here would I even consider being murdered as an option.
If nothing else, I will be in control of my death. After all this suffering, I won't allow anyone or anything else to take my life, the only thing they haven't taken left. My life is mine to take.
If a war did break out, I guess dying in a battle would be appealing, but at this point we're entertaining alternate universes so far away from this current reality that it shouldn't effect my overall answer to the question.

 

[howunfortunateforme]

I don't want anyone getting angry at me after I die so accidental death sounds appealing. But I'm afraid it might not be quick and painless.

At least If ctb, I can choose a method that is relatively quick and painless

Which one?

 

[Chinaski]

I want to get ignominiously kicked to death in a grimy town centre in the pissing rain by a gang of youths, all of whom are medical students with government sanctioned licences to kill and are therefore Compassionate

 

[kitkat9234]

I wish someone would just do it for me. I hate how hard it is to CTB. The only method is have is not reliable. I'm scared of failure and ending up in a psych ward loosing my job and apartment. Too chicken shit to actually try it. Everyday I wish that I don't wake up and I literally curse out loud when I do. I hate this. I need somebody to just kill me already.

 

[foreverlanguish]

I'd rather CTB, but a part of me wishes I could get murdered. I deserve it for being a scum of the earth. Don't know why no one has done it to me yet.

 

[EternalShore]

car crash (which would be incredibly funny in an 'open at the close' sort of way with my trauma history

yeahhhhhh~ rofl~ We literally just talked about that! xDDD

It would also be far easier for my loved ones to cope with- my brother and childhood best friend have both lost people close to them from suicide, and it's devastated them. It's painful to think of compounding their own trauma with the subject: and they've both expressed directly to me that it would hurt them badly if I killed myself. So, being offed in some other fashion- well, it would still be rough on them, I imagine, but easier to swallow than my suicide.

I'm sorry about that~ :( While no one close to anyone in my family has died by sewer slide, it is a whole lot more, well, uncomfy for them than murder (where 1 can have proper memorials and such), so I understand completely~ >_<

I would feel bad in both cases, getting just slain would feel like such a waste, not being strong enough to overcome what was coming, dying in a dumb car crash while there were greater things to do and achieve, atleast in a war it would be for the Nation.. I bet though that if I died because of any reason I will just feel guilt in the end, because I didn't fulfill my purpose and lost the vision that the past me wanted me to have. All things considered though I agree, cbt really would make my family feel bad too, what would be a shame

speaking of which, dying for a reason or purpose~ >:3 you could become a martyr whether it be for your religion or country, and then, you could become a saint or be one of those names engraved in memorials~ makes me scared to know how big the Russo-Ukraine War's memorial will be! >_<

Murdered because that way I wouldn't have to do anything. Since everybody's agreed the world would be a better place without me in it, you'd think somebody would just do the right thing and remove me. But no.

yeah, being abandoned without any social connections is the worst~ :( I hate it~ >_< I'm sorry that you have to suffer through it as well~ :( people say they care, but we all know they just lie...

Murdered, mainly because of a fear a torturous afterlife if I do ctb

same~ >_< that and parents makes me feel like I'll never ctb even though my life is such suffering~ :( If I'm already doing something really gray, I better not risk it completely by doing something definitely wrong~ >_<

I want to get ignominiously kicked to death in a grimy town centre in the pissing rain by a gang of youths, all of whom are medical students with government sanctioned licences to kill and are therefore Compassionate

rofl~ You're so silly! :3 It may be dark, but I admire it~ :)

I wish someone would just do it for me. I hate how hard it is to CTB. The only method is have is not reliable. I'm scared of failure and ending up in a psych ward loosing my job and apartment. Too chicken shit to actually try it. Everyday I wish that I don't wake up and I literally curse out loud when I do. I hate this. I need somebody to just kill me already.

relatable~ :((( even when I do get super sewer slidal, I realize that timing is everything, and I have to wait for when I have fewer responsibilities in order to actually do it, but that's when things are actually somewhat survivable, so it's all so~ >_< aaaaaaaaaaaa. In short, yes, the psych ward and getting your life ruined by it is very scary, yes :(

I'd rather CTB, but a part of me wishes I could get murdered. I deserve it for being a scum of the earth. Don't know why no one has done it to me yet.

I'm sorry you feel that way~ :( All of us are broken in this broken world, so it's not like you're uniquely terrible~ :) idk if you wish to talk about it, but if you truly feel that way, you can start treating others here with love and eventually those irl too, truly caring about them (unlike how many of us have been mistreated by others), so you can make up for your past misdeeds with better deeds~ :)

 

[nomoredolor]

I would thank my murderer if I had the wherewithall before my SI kicked in. Hell, I would bake them thank you brownies.
Anna

 

[yowai]

When I'm at my lowest I wish there was something that'd do the job for me and that way my family would suffer less and not blame themselves for how I ended up, especially my mom with her overthinking and worrying that she didn't do enough for me etc. I hate when she's getting in this mood and I gotta get her out of her head, that's number one reason I can't get myself to go through with it. Everyone can end up in an accident like a car crash so it wouldn't be anything she'd feel responsible for. But on the other side I wouldn't be able to sort out some things I want to get done before leaving

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

No way, I couldn't trust a murderer to kill me in a humane way since they're not the one who feels the pain. I want to CTB by nitrogen exit bag which is not something any murderer will consider.

The only possible exception would be if a doctor agreed to euthananize me, which would probably count as murder where I live. I still woulndn't be very comfortable with the possibility of someone ending up in prison over my death when they were trying to help me.

 

[death_bed221]

I wish someone would murder me so my mom wouldn't feel like Its her fault.

 

[HappiestAngel]

Being murdered would probably be easier for my family to accept.

Also if someone could somehow gain happiness or gratification from my death then that would be preferable because then at least my death isnt causing only pain.

 

[3/4Dead]

Get murdered. No controversy, no arguments, no suicide notes. Much easier.

 

[Redacted24]

Murdered... gently would be nice, maybe with a pillow while I'm sleeping. Ahhh, that's comforting.

 

[TheShadowKing]

I am not letting someone kill me i got way too much pride for that I'm gonna die fighting if anything

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Being murdered as you wish is not the way I intend it.
You can be tortured, raped or kidnapped before. So I prefer to die the way I want

 

[Red Moon]

I would want to ctb on my own terms because I would feel like a weakling/rat if I were to be murdered by the hands of someone else, be it strangled or stabbed to death. If it was by accident then maybe. If I ctb then it would probably make the family guilty but in both scenarios I'd feel like a failure/loser.

 

[Privateer2368]

I'd rather die in battle

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I think I'd prefer to be in charge and do my own. Before, when I was in the dark about methods, I even thought of wandering around in unsafe areas where I could get killed. But now, I'd like to choose the when and how, if something else doesn't get to me first.

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

I wish someone would shoot me in the head