NSFW Would you sell your soul to earn a lot of money?

[noname223]

This is a pretty difficult question for me. On the one hand I am a very principled person but on the other hand I will probably ctb due to money issues.

Some ideas what selling your soul means: For example things you morally disapprove, you don't really want to do or breaking the law.

More explicit examples. Selling your body like prostitution or other deals which involve sex, uploading porn, selling drugs or other medication, selling organs illegally, stealing money or other crimes.
I cannot name more examples but there are probably way more.

I could ruminate a lot about this question. I think I could not sell my body who would want to have sexual intercourse with me anyway? I had to sleep with the same sex or very unattractive people. I think I could not do that.

Then the other examples. Doing porn never. But that is just my personal approach I am rather conservative about that.

What would be still possible? Breaking the law? Honestly I think I am way way too anxious to do that. In my country we call that criminal energy and I don't have much of that. I am already extremely anxious like all the time. And the notion of breaking the law stresses me severely. I am even anxious to get a punishment even if I have bought a ticket for train. I have kind of a paranoia I could lose the ticket or other theories And one time I had the wrong one and really got a punishment. This felt extremely bad.

The only thing that is left for me is suicide. And even for that I might have to break the law if I want to die peacefully which is in my point of view very cyncial. But honestly there is nothing much left. I know I cannot live in poverty. What is more horrible for me? The fear of getting a punishment or the fear of getting permanent damage for the rest of my life. There is no good answer to this question. And this is more or less the title of my personal biography "There are just no good options".

 

[sunsetting]

Would try it. If I'm going to ctb anyways why not make the last moments enjoyable?

 

[nys]

I wouldn't do it now, but in the past, for a pretty short amount of time, I sold myself. I didn't really want to do it but I did it anyway, and put myself at risk to get money. I was pretty anxious about getting caught the whole time and I eventually stopped. I guess my mindset has changed a lot since then because now, going to those lengths to get money seems unthinkable

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I also need money but would not 'sell my soul' in the way you describe, because of principles, I wouldn't want to do something that would hurt others which most of those things are. Same with scamming people etc.

I would be alright though with prostitution (its not illegal here) or uploading some kind of censored porn/adult work of myself (only 'victim' is my viewers lol) if it paid well, just because I think that's different and I could do more good than harm, not just with the money I made really. I'd probably offer to escort for free anyway to right people if I was professional at that in life, it's not a lot different to what others do for 'free', and I'd definitely be picky lol. Not into either of these things myself though, one's a waste of money and neither excites me.

I do think it's terrible that people ctb due to money issues and hope that that sees serious change in the world.

 

[narval]

First of all, i don't think that break the law is sell your soul.

I think that's more submiting yourself unconditionally to the will of another subject or institution (whether legal/formal or not).

In other words: becoming a voluntary slave. you will not have will, desires, targets, life, nothing... except the ones that have your master. he commands, you obey.
remember: you have sold your soul... and there's a master.

Of course, i won't sell my soul. No matter what.

BTW: about immorality/decadence of oneself... that could be considered selling your soul to the vices/bad habits or something like that. i don't think so, that's other thing.

don't mistake weakness/surrender/vices with sell your soul.

in the first case you still can choose how to fall/end your life, or even try to redeem yourself

in the second, not even that

 

[Passersby]

I think there will be more and more ctb from financial difficulties and people facing homelessness. It will only get worse. Numbers will increase. They already are. I would not sell my soul to make some kind of deal. Some religious types would say that we will lose our souls when we ctb so if I lose my soul to ctb then so be it I guess. I don't wanna be here anymore.

 

[Life_and_Death]

nope. for 1 i dont care about money and for 2 money cant fix my problems

 

[Banshee]

Funny to assume I have one lol

 

[WorthlessTrash]

No, but I'd sell my soul to have been born the correct assigned sex.

 

[Grav]

No I wouldn't sell my soul in the classic "cartoon Devil shows up with a contract" kind of way. I feel like I have though in real life, work I don't like but do for the money, then buy stuff to put off the hate of the job (all the ancillary crap) which keeps me locked in the job, etc, etc. and feeds very easily into my normal depression and desire to CTB. Makes living even that more shitty.

 

[Ringo]

Selling your soul is similar to a deal with the devil and deals with the devil are like the monkey's hand, it gives you what you want but not in the way you want. The difference is that in a soul-sale you always end up fucked, from the point of view of the person who buys your soul, if you got to the point of selling it, what value can the soul of such a person have? That is an idea most stories about deals of this nature handle, at least in mythology.