GreyMonkey
Heartbroken
- Aug 20, 2019
- 277
It's ok that you feel like a useless piece of shit. It's ok that you believe that you are worthless. That you don't deserve to be loved and that everyone will give up on you when you push them away.
It's ok that you believe you have done nothing meaningful in your life, that all you have been capable of is failures.
It's ok that you don't want to do anything, that you don't want to try to change, that you believe you can't change.
I won't force you to change anymore. I won't ask that you be different. I won't push you away.
It's ok if you want to smash your life to pieces in the belief that you aren't capable of anything more. You don't have to be great. You don't have to be anything. You can just be as you are in all of your glorious dysfunction.
You don't have to get married. You don't have to have a good job. You don't have to talk to that attractive woman. You don't have to have scores of friends. You don't have to be social. You don't have to believe that life has any grand meaning or purpose.
You don't have to do anything you don't want to do.
I accept you. As you are. I won't try to fix you or get rid of you anymore.
And if you want to be miserable, you can be. If you want to watch tv all day, if you want to smoke so many cigarettes your lungs hurt, if you don't want to shower, if you don't want to eat. You can.
You don't have to exercise. You don't have to have a good body. You don't have to be attractive. You don't have to achieve anything in this life.
I will not reject you anymore.
Yes I hear the quiet voice under you that is crying to express, to be a better person yet I will not abandon you for him. I will not favour him over you.
Because I realise that when I push you away, you cry and you hurt and you scream and you break things. You want attention. You want to be loved even though you believe you are unloveable. You are crying out to be held even though you think you are broken and you believe that no-one will actually be there to hold you or love you or want you.
And I won't try to make you feel better. I won't tell you that you are loveable or wanted.
Yet I will hold you. I will be there for you.
I will not abandon you any longer.
It's ok that you believe you have done nothing meaningful in your life, that all you have been capable of is failures.
It's ok that you don't want to do anything, that you don't want to try to change, that you believe you can't change.
I won't force you to change anymore. I won't ask that you be different. I won't push you away.
It's ok if you want to smash your life to pieces in the belief that you aren't capable of anything more. You don't have to be great. You don't have to be anything. You can just be as you are in all of your glorious dysfunction.
You don't have to get married. You don't have to have a good job. You don't have to talk to that attractive woman. You don't have to have scores of friends. You don't have to be social. You don't have to believe that life has any grand meaning or purpose.
You don't have to do anything you don't want to do.
I accept you. As you are. I won't try to fix you or get rid of you anymore.
And if you want to be miserable, you can be. If you want to watch tv all day, if you want to smoke so many cigarettes your lungs hurt, if you don't want to shower, if you don't want to eat. You can.
You don't have to exercise. You don't have to have a good body. You don't have to be attractive. You don't have to achieve anything in this life.
I will not reject you anymore.
Yes I hear the quiet voice under you that is crying to express, to be a better person yet I will not abandon you for him. I will not favour him over you.
Because I realise that when I push you away, you cry and you hurt and you scream and you break things. You want attention. You want to be loved even though you believe you are unloveable. You are crying out to be held even though you think you are broken and you believe that no-one will actually be there to hold you or love you or want you.
And I won't try to make you feel better. I won't tell you that you are loveable or wanted.
Yet I will hold you. I will be there for you.
I will not abandon you any longer.
