Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚
Student
- Oct 8, 2024
- 183
Today was definitely better than yesterday, BUT, it was so humid and hot today I slept and took a long nap.
Had two appointments with my conselor today and that was nice, also I'm going to put this here to remind myself:
I really wanna do a tarot reading with her because it's been a while and I'm looking for guidance.
Allergies are bad but not horrible. My energy is way better so that's good!
When I was taking a walk the weather started getting nasty so I didn't get to walk as much as I wanted but that just left more time for me to draw!
I haven't mentioned this on any past posts I don't think but for school and world religions they made me take a look into Hinduism and Buddhism . I found that Buddhism is actually very close to what I already believe in and what was really interesting to me was the concept of Nirvana and finding peace/ending suffering.
As much as I am better mentally I definitely don't want to be reborn
Life's so stressful!
I heard it took 49 days for Siddartha to become what we know him for today as Buddha. I know this could be seen as idiotic but I thought, "why not try for 49 days aswelll?" Not exactly to become Buddha but to hopefully reach nirvana.
I also want to work on becoming a kinder and more helpful person for a multitude of reasons.
I was thinking of making another journal for meditation but I'd probably forget about it so I will be recording my meditation progress in my main journal!
This is day one of meditation and I was definitely distracted but felt calmer afterwards.
Lastly, below is a photo of a little path that's slowly been carved out for the past 2 plus months from me walking everyday lol
It feels like a physical reminder that I am trying
Anywho, I know tomorrow will be awesome and I hope yours is too!
Xxx
Also another note my mom was yelling a bit today and it was just another reminder to get out of here as soon as possible
Had two appointments with my conselor today and that was nice, also I'm going to put this here to remind myself:
I really wanna do a tarot reading with her because it's been a while and I'm looking for guidance.
Allergies are bad but not horrible. My energy is way better so that's good!
When I was taking a walk the weather started getting nasty so I didn't get to walk as much as I wanted but that just left more time for me to draw!
I haven't mentioned this on any past posts I don't think but for school and world religions they made me take a look into Hinduism and Buddhism . I found that Buddhism is actually very close to what I already believe in and what was really interesting to me was the concept of Nirvana and finding peace/ending suffering.
As much as I am better mentally I definitely don't want to be reborn
Life's so stressful!
I heard it took 49 days for Siddartha to become what we know him for today as Buddha. I know this could be seen as idiotic but I thought, "why not try for 49 days aswelll?" Not exactly to become Buddha but to hopefully reach nirvana.
I also want to work on becoming a kinder and more helpful person for a multitude of reasons.
I was thinking of making another journal for meditation but I'd probably forget about it so I will be recording my meditation progress in my main journal!
This is day one of meditation and I was definitely distracted but felt calmer afterwards.
Lastly, below is a photo of a little path that's slowly been carved out for the past 2 plus months from me walking everyday lol
It feels like a physical reminder that I am trying
Anywho, I know tomorrow will be awesome and I hope yours is too!
Xxx
Also another note my mom was yelling a bit today and it was just another reminder to get out of here as soon as possible
