Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚
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- Oct 8, 2024
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I've been napping so much lately, and it feels so good. Though, not without a side of guilt.
If you've been reading you'll have noticed that the last few posts have been pretty short, and that's because I've honestly been sleeping a lot.
Just today I took two separate naps, it was so comfortable.
Today was once again rather chill, but I've had this warmth in my chest almost all day, I'm glad that I'm being there for my siblings as sometimes it's hard to communicate my feelings.
Later this afternoon though my mom brought up the quest I posed to her last week and she finally answered, though it just got me more anxious.
Essentially my bf said it would be fine if I spent new years with his family and he even asked if I wanted to bring someone else so I told my sister about it and my mom so she could choose if it'd be appropriate.
She wants to specifically go to a restaurant and talk for 15 minutes though I know it'd be longer. Why I don't want to do this though is I don't actually really want him to get to know my family for the most part and we even had a conversation not that long ago.
I was stressing but my counselor made some good points and reminded me I have choices, a lot actually. And because me and her still have a rocky relationship I decided I'm just going to tell my little sister that plans have changed.
I just don't want to make it a whole big thing when it was supposed to be fun.
Anyways, I was reminded of Chloe Tings workouts—and man, YES THEYRE JUST AS TIRING AS I REMEMBER!
I'm going to do belly dancing tomorrow—I don't really know what to expect, it's thirty minutes long so I hope it's not too exhausting
Got outside for a bit too. Honestly today was pretty good—can't believe I'm already two weeks clean from sh again
Xxx
If you've been reading you'll have noticed that the last few posts have been pretty short, and that's because I've honestly been sleeping a lot.
Just today I took two separate naps, it was so comfortable.
Today was once again rather chill, but I've had this warmth in my chest almost all day, I'm glad that I'm being there for my siblings as sometimes it's hard to communicate my feelings.
Later this afternoon though my mom brought up the quest I posed to her last week and she finally answered, though it just got me more anxious.
Essentially my bf said it would be fine if I spent new years with his family and he even asked if I wanted to bring someone else so I told my sister about it and my mom so she could choose if it'd be appropriate.
She wants to specifically go to a restaurant and talk for 15 minutes though I know it'd be longer. Why I don't want to do this though is I don't actually really want him to get to know my family for the most part and we even had a conversation not that long ago.
I was stressing but my counselor made some good points and reminded me I have choices, a lot actually. And because me and her still have a rocky relationship I decided I'm just going to tell my little sister that plans have changed.
I just don't want to make it a whole big thing when it was supposed to be fun.
Anyways, I was reminded of Chloe Tings workouts—and man, YES THEYRE JUST AS TIRING AS I REMEMBER!
I'm going to do belly dancing tomorrow—I don't really know what to expect, it's thirty minutes long so I hope it's not too exhausting
Got outside for a bit too. Honestly today was pretty good—can't believe I'm already two weeks clean from sh again
Xxx
