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Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚

Chuuya-Chan ⋆. 𐙚˚

Student
Oct 8, 2024
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Today was very similar to yesterday.

Except, I tried to make cookies for new years. And I failed big time 😁👊

Why you may ask? Bc the butter had soap 🧼 in it 😁🔫

Anyways, it left me so defeated I just left the cookies in the oven, I'll deal with them tomorrow…

If I make any cookies tomorrow they won't have any chocolate in it…I wasted so much food :,(


Anyways, just feel kinda down like usual, nothings going wrong, but I still feel down.

Like it's so strange, I used to love myself, just 6 months ago but the rest of this year had just gone down hill and perhaps I don't hate myself, but I don't see anything to love either.

To make matters worse I wanted to feel pretty and straightened my hair but it looks really bad…I hate my hair. Wtf.

I feel reluctant to talk to my counselor again because I feel the same, just not as bad I guess…I just feel like I'm going to be like this forever so why should I drag someone down with me?

Even the things that make me happy all I can think about is how I'll lose them too, and writing in my physical journal I've realized nothings changed in the last 5 years. Literally nothing.

Anyways, my next entry might be really short because I have labs on new years but I'll try to give more details about my day tomorrow hopefully.

Xxx
 
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