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- Jul 14, 2021
- 21
some one just dissed me in a form for something that cheers me up a little bit when i feel all hope is gone. I am not where i need to be in life to have my out method lined up. day by day that factor is getting more debilitating. I didn't think this was a place to make fun of other people....suicidal people deserve a save space to talk with out being judged. my friend just OD'ed im actually kinda jealous. some people have to make sure their end of life orders are arranged before they can just end their life. I know this sounds ironic. I wish I had my life together enough that it didn't matter and i could end my life tomorrow.....but so many of those pro life fuckers wanna argue with you. i know the world will go in a better direction if we allow euthesia for the terminally ill or chronically mentally ill - who prefer euthesia as an alternative to treatment(they do this shit in Belgium why not America!!! i mean if i could go through a 2 week psych evaluation and then given a prescription to die i would sign the fuck up! you are really going to judge me in the one safe space suicidal people are supposed to have? you do not belong here. who ever mocked me for my feelings here you are a shit human being......some of us have no family and no where to go. believe me i really wish i ended it years ago......woulda saved me a lot of fucking life bull shit. i honestly came here to talk to some one and feel better........because i didnt want to be alone and cut again.....i just wanted some one to talk to.....now i realized sobbing alone and cutting is better. i thought i could reach out to strangers online when i was most despite. thought this message board was for support. now i know i really am alone. i wish my life was over so badly........i didnt come here to get made fun of for my constant feelings.....i try to be compassionate towards other members......i already feel like its not fair that im not dead. i did not come here to be attacked.......like i said i never say anything nasty on any one elses posts. but i guess thats more proof i cant even reach out to relatable people.....i don't even know why i keep trying. thank you who ever you were to talk shit on my cry for help post. i fucking hope so too that i get my shit together and fucking end my life. Infact....thank you now that i realize it. im only hurting my self and that is the most important factor i need to work on. i was kinda hoping to chat and make a friend who feels the same........but encouraging me towards making the steps i knew needed to be done years ago. cool. i really wanna shoot a bunch of fetynal and just never fucking deal with this realm ever again. my drug tollerance is kinda high tho.........so my ultimate choice is fucking bullet to the brain. i cant go on another 5 years feeling this way. so hey hater on my post i hope it makes you happy i want this in the nest 2-3 years. even that long is pointless.....
