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jimmyinnout

jimmyinnout

Member
Sep 5, 2025
8
After a long day of "work" I cannot resist the urge to buy alcohol. I drink 2 cans of strong "beer" (7%) on an average day, and a wine bottle or higher on a friday/weekend. I dont feel good when I drink but I atleast feel better than I do "sober". Worst yet my father died of alcoholism. I dont want to did ugly like he died. He died old, bald, and fat. I want to die young and handsome. currently, I dont have the money for any alcohol (cents in my bank) but: once i get psid, i want to drink a 750 ml bottle and just be "free" in what we call humanity.
 
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TheMountainTreeEgg

TheMountainTreeEgg

Fish
Dec 9, 2024
47
The only thing that makes me happy is skating, if didn't pick up skating I would have CTB a long time ago, and even now I still want to CTB.
 
jimmyinnout

jimmyinnout

Member
Sep 5, 2025
8
The only thing that makes me happy is skating, if didn't pick up skating I would have CTB a long time ago, and even now I still want to CTB.
I think a physical activity can never be wrong. It's just difficult to force yourself to do it daily, even if you're "happy" - but im glaad you have something enjoyable.
 
Lady_V

Lady_V

Please be honest.
Aug 31, 2025
56
I think the reality of alcoholism is that you will get ugly. You will gain weight, your face will bloat, your skin will turn a different color. I'm in the same boat. Struggling with abusing alcohol but fearing the physical repercussions. I only just started limiting my drinking because of vain reasons. I take pills during the week and have benders on the weekend. I try my best to stay hydrated to ease the damage.
 
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fazzle

Member
Sep 13, 2025
5
I never considered myself an alcoholic, but I've had at least 2 drinks every night for 20 years. Maybe that makes me an alcoholic lol. I look young for my age (40s) but I know that will catch-up to me quickly. I used to enjoy it, but now I hate the hangover, it's hard. But I always go back to it as it makes me feel "ok" for a little while. I don't know how else to get that feeling.
 
bipolar22

bipolar22

Notorious shtposter
Aug 31, 2022
277
I been an alcoholic and real alcoholism for me starts at a 750 ml 40 percent liquor or equivalent daily. But its a slow creep and it could go that way for some of yall. Alcohol is miraculous and wonderful but it did too much permanent damage to me so I had to quit and I can never touch it again.

Im jelly. Enjoy your wine and be warned; its a slippery slope.
 

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