Alcoholics thread

[Brokenanddeadinside]

I used to have a alcohol problem used to chug gin till I blacked out. My body kinda rejects alcohol now if im drinking at home. I could really go for a gin and tonic though.

 

[Tomasnil]

I used to have a alcohol problem used to chug gin till I blacked out. My body kinda rejects alcohol now if im drinking at home. I could really go for a gin and tonic though.

I think i have one now

 

[ge0rge]

this hangover ain't leaving me, I feel like I've been dragged around by wild horses, then run over and shat on

 

[BlackDragonof1989]

Sorry to be a party pooper but my mom died of complications of alcoholism at the age of 67 a few years ago. I have the same personality as her, addictive and all, but scared of alcohol. Really want to see what it's all about though xD

But yes, her stent started to malfunction in her liver that they had put in in the early 2000s, and they said she was too frail to operate, at first she wanted to go home, then I got angry with her, made her want to die, when the morphine kicked in in the retirement home she was at least not in physical pain. Last I remember her being conscious was watching an episode of the Rifleman with her on my laptop there, it was a favorite of hers when she grew up. I abandoned her in her final days, though she was unconscious by then (funny thing is the eyes need muscles to stay closed so they stayed open ever so slightly as her body shut down). She basically drowned in her own fluids as not even paracentesis every few days could help, her little 5 foot frame bloated up 30 pounds in a matter of days.

But! She never got stretch marks, I am a fairly big boi and have them all over my body. She was smaller, but so much stronger than me! Said that none of her babies hurt when she had them, she believes an angel visited her each time she was pregnant. I think I may have mental damage due to being the last born and her body fairly wrecked by 39 when she had me in 1989. And perhaps my time is soon too. Premonitions, predictions, and so on. DXM may only open a portal to a realm I do not understand, or it may all simply be biochemical. But as surely as there is sentience in my body at this time and place where I was born, there is something more. Too many coincidences too. But I may just by psychotic *yawns*

Yeah, I want to try some vodka and get properly drunk at least once in my life though. xD

 

[Dead_Inside]

Hey I usually don't drink, my mom would kill me if I did, but what do you recommend me to get really drunk? I need to change my brain chemistry so I can hang myself

Hahaha .... well I am going to say vodka (I need a sponsorship) but if you want to get well and truly fucked try something like everclear ... look for high alcohol %. But be careful. I realized I can't actually hang myself when I drink too much. Hanging is more complicated than just throwing back a bunch of pills.

 

[EternalSanction]

I try to keep my drinking limited to "only" 3 to 4 days a week. On these days I'll drink around 150~200ml of pure alcohol, mostly in form of whisky, gin, beer, rum.

 

[Nzbeelover]

I am not addicted to alcohol but i mix once or twice a week vodka and diet coke mixed with xanax.
I like to drink because i like self harm i do also self mutilation only in winter so nobody can see it.

Are you saying you like the feeling of selfharming when your drunk? Because sometimes when I'm pretty far gone i selfharm it feels good to me in a sick way. I can drink and drink and drink until i pass out. I feel a sense of anxiety every time I reach for the first drink. .. bc I know o shouldn't drink and I'm scared about what I might say or do but there's a little part of me that still wants to drink.

 

[Meena]

Are you saying you like the feeling of selfharming when your drunk? Because sometimes when I'm pretty far gone i selfharm it feels good to me in a sick way. I can drink and drink and drink until i pass out. I feel a sense of anxiety every time I reach for the first drink. .. bc I know o shouldn't drink and I'm scared about what I might say or do but there's a little part of me that still wants to drink.

No i make self mutilation only when i am sober.

 

[Nzbeelover]

No i make self mutilation only when i am sober.

Ok thanks for answering. I have been drinking everyday lately.. I've had a drinking problem for about a year

 

[Meena]

Ok thanks for answering. I have been drinking everyday lately.. I've had a drinking problem for about a year

I see. Actually i do this cocktail once or twice a week. And only when i have xanax

 

[Tomasnil]

Ok thanks for answering. I have been drinking everyday lately.. I've had a drinking problem for about a year

Its weird right you often feel like crap.. But at the same time feels so good

 

[Nzbeelover]

Its weird right you often feel like crap.. But at the same time feels so good

Bang on!