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hellocana

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Aug 10, 2025
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Hi , I'm new to these forums and I really wasn't expecting to be here but I guess you never know where life takes you.

I was actually living quite a normal life up to a year ago. I did have bouts of depression throughout my life and I've always been a hypersenstive person ie taking things to heart. I had trouble fitting in especially during my teens, I moved around quite a bit during my youth making it difficult to make friends, and I've always been the person to never speak first. After high school, I became a little more confident, hit the gym regularly started partying and meeting new people. During this time I was making friends but also turning to drinking and drugs as an escape. Fast forward in my 30's, picked up a new career met an amazing girlfriend who treated me good and I thrived to be the best I can be. This all changed, I unexpectedly had a severe weed-induced psychosis. Don't want to get to details but I said some pretty terrible things to people around me ended up in a psych ward and slowly started to isolate myself. I stopped everything, exercising, working, and I can't even focus on short videos or have normal conversation. My brain essentially shut off and all my dreams and goals taken away. It's been a rough time and the episode still haunts me to this day. I started looking at these forums and now I'm ready to take the next step.
 
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Cowboy_Kid

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Feb 18, 2023
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Welcome to SS 🤗

I also had a turning/breaking point. In life I have had ups and downs, but nothing that would leave permanent damage. Then, due to life circumstances, I had to move and live with 5 other roommates. Some things happened that I'm not ready to talk about yet, but it was on that Friday in November 2024 that something just changed in me. It's as if suicide was quite literally the only solution. And I was very calm about it, the hysteria came afterwards. But yeah. You truly never know where life can take you
 
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hellocana

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Aug 10, 2025
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Thanks for the welcome and I'm sorry to hear that. Life can be cruel and sometimes you wonder whether it could of been prevent or if things are just meant to be
 

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