Story Anyone else here who is suicidal because of strict parents?

[LifeIsASadist]

I want to hear all of your stories if your suicidality came from your strict or even abusive parents.

My step dad is like a fucking bully, purposely tries to intimidate me because he knows he can overpower me easily because I can't gain weight easily due to genetics + ectomorph genes.

My step dad would scream at my face for any chance he gets to which is why I would starve myself and hell I feel forced to eat out because I don't feel safe cooking.

 

[RoseGirl]

my dad used to choke me out and say that he'd kill me from time to time but nower days i'm significantly stronger and faster then him so he doesn't try and shenanigans anymore + I'm pretty sure he regrets his actions. I've turned out to be a pretty pathetic failure who tries to kill themself every few months lol

 

[Apokryphiel]

My parents are the largest part of all this to blame for what I've become. They sculpted me into something that can't live. It's just not fair that some of us aren't even given the bare minimum. We can only be born into a family, after all, so why do some of us just not have one? I would have preferred if they had all just died a long time ago, because then I would at least have an easier time remembering what they did right. I've practically forgotten it all at this point. I can't distinguish whether I love or hate my parents anymore. And that's what hurts the most about all of this - being forced to hate the people you love or being forced to love the people you hate. I wonder which is worse.

 

[RoseGirl]

I don't mind my dad he did his best. Even if his best wasn't great.

 

[darksouls]

good souls are often born into toxic families

 

[Pale_Rider]

Kind of. I have DID from abuse. DID contributes to wanting to ctb.

 

[Aergia]

It's a factor. Not their strictness per se— more like their religious fundamentalism and their imposition of that on me. I suspect that is the underlying (if indirect) cause of my mental health issues.

 

[gooblet]

my parents are not very good when it comes to mental health. I have never said i'm not ok because they treat you like you're disabled and they will never look at me in the same way. thats why my attempt has to work otherwise life will become horrible between us

 

[SleepyTransit]

I came from a very strict, conservative and very mis-led family. I have high functioning autism and did not the proper support needed when i was young because of their beliefs about neuro related issues (They straight up don't beleive these things exist.) I was foricbly taught to be a "child of god", "beleiver of the lord", and all the other religious bullshit from a family like mine you would expect from to praise and teach their children about.

If I even DARED to create my own opinions, I would of been beaten sometimes to the point where I should of been sent to the hospital. I was often verbally assault because of how i walk, talk, and even how i do certain things. One simple mistake and you won't be fed or given water for 24 hours. When I mean "simple mistake" I really fucking mean it. I was given that exact punishment because I forgot to leave the door of the bathroom open when I was finished in there.

The mental & physical scars are still apparent on me. I escaped my family when i turned 17, I couldn't handle the in person abuse any further, only found out I was autistic at 18, the abuse from the family still occurs towards me. I can't handle the pain any further, I have blocked their numbers, reported any mail sent from them, I have done everything i could have done to get them out of my life but yet, they still find way to contact me. I am done with this life I want the pain to not only end but make the pain transfer to my family. Fuck them all.