my boyfriend is similarly amazing and kind, but my bpd often makes it nigh-unbearable to be a human being that maintains relationships with other people. even the smallest indication of abandonment dials my pain response to 11, no matter how normal any given interaction i'm experiencing is.
i truly thought this might be the one chance i get wherein someone will tolerate me - really, actually keep being incredibly kind to me despite the fact that i'm utterly and totally incapable of not being a monster without even realizing it. but i'm pretty sure he's getting tired of me now. the atmosphere between us is definitely different, and it's as if we're about to reach a breaking point. and honestly, i think this very singular fact might break me.
time and time again, i have utterly failed at maintaining functional relationships, despite the fact that i have an insatiable craving for love and affection - so, when the inevitable does end up happening, i think it'll be time to go.
i'm really glad that your partner is so good to you - that from what you've said, your relationship at least seems to be very positive. being honest with him might indeed be the best possible thing for you both right now, unless you're absolutely sure that alienation is fate, as is in my case. eithet way, i really do hope things work out according to the way you want them to.