Anyone else planning their death

[Ashpac]

Ive been sitting with my mam tonight watching netflix.

We watched central Intelligence and Grown ups 1. Great films.

The entire time I was planning my death next week and how she would feel. She knows how I feel and how much I wanna die. In this family though, we ignore depressed people, we dont talk about it.

Im so annoyed because I listened to her shit as a kid, and helped her she cant even bare to listen to me at a time when I need her. I wished id told her as a kid to fuck off and keep it to yourself just like she would do when im 28. Family are useless and fucking hypocrites.

Thank fuck im gonna be at peace soon.

 

[Deivis]

Time ago I've stopped caring about this issue.

People are people and they don't change. Even if she says otherwise.

If I find a bird's nest in a park and start stealing eggs from it, the mother bird would attack me. Or if I try to snatch puppies or cubs from a wolf's or lion's den - they will eat me alive. But it's just an instinct.

As a person, a douchebag mother will remain so although she won't let her offspring die. It's not her, it's the bitch talking. Again, people rarely change...

 

[Ashpac]

Thanks, I feel so touched by that reply. Im glad you took the time out to make me feel better.

 

[Deivis]

Thanks, I feel so touched by that reply. Im glad you took the time out to make me feel better.

Hm! What exactly in my words are so uplifting? It was kind of dark statement on my side, I believe...

 

[Ashpac]

Hm! What exactly in my words are so uplifting? It was kind of dark statement on my side, I believe...

Im guessing you dont know sarcasm. I know what you said was dark. Youre the type of person Id punch in a bar!

Which annoys me, since we are on this site and I believe everyone should help eachother out.

 

[Comatose11]

Well yes, I've planned my date. I know the method. I know the date. I know what I'm going to say in my note.

 

[misanthrope1]

Well yes, I've planned my date. I know the method. I know the date. I know what I'm going to say in my note.

Have you any other plans, things to do before you go?

 

[sadmuneca]

Ive been sitting with my mam tonight watching netflix.

We watched central Intelligence and Grown ups 1. Great films.

The entire time I was planning my death next week and how she would feel. She knows how I feel and how much I wanna die. In this family though, we ignore depressed people, we dont talk about it.

Im so annoyed because I listened to her shit as a kid, and helped her she cant even bare to listen to me at a time when I need her. I wished id told her as a kid to fuck off and keep it to yourself just like she would do when im 28. Family are useless and fucking hypocrites.

Thank fuck im gonna be at peace soon.

You and I are in kind of similar circumstances. I am so sorry you're going through the same.

 

[Rocky M]

I know how you feel. My family is religious and expects me to "pray" to help me get better. It doesn't help. As for planning, I have a method and generalized date picked out. I wish you peace.

 

[ninaevol]

I know how you feel. My family is religious and expects me to "pray" to help me get better. It doesn't help. As for planning, I have a method and generalized date picked out. I wish you peace.

Same here, with the religious family. A couple years ago when I was 18, and actually opened up to my father about my depression, all he told me was to stop being alone in my room all the time and to "pray harder". I couldn't tell him I stopped believing in God since I was 14.. or else he'd kick me out in a heartbeat. Can't afford to move out anytime soon and live my own life without their constant judgement, so I'm planning to ctb soon.

 

[Comatose11]

Have you any other plans, things to do before you go?

Sorry, I didn't see this until now. I do have some things to get through first which is why it'll be in about a month.

 

[Comatose11]

Same here, with the religious family. A couple years ago when I was 18, and actually opened up to my father about my depression, all he told me was to stop being alone in my room all the time and to "pray harder". I couldn't tell him I stopped believing in God since I was 14.. or else he'd kick me out in a heartbeat. Can't afford to move out anytime soon and live my own life without their constant judgement, so I'm planning to ctb soon.

I can't relate to having a weirdly religious family but that is frustrating, I'm sorry you have to deal with that.

 

[Definitelyworried]

I know how you feel. My family is religious and expects me to "pray" to help me get better. It doesn't help. As for planning, I have a method and generalized date picked out. I wish you peace.

My family is very religious too.
But I been indoctrinated and I have the fear of hell instilled in me.