Discussion anyone that still lives with their parents

[BlueberrySylv]

I wonder. for anyone who still lives with their parents
how are you planning to ctb?
and what are your plans for making them not notice.

also on a side note do you still have some attachments or emotions towards your family?, what do you think will happen once they find your body

 

[Namelesa]

I still live with my parents and they make it really hard for me to ctb as I am not allowed to go outside to use a method like jumping or be able to buy something like SN. The only method I had access to was partial hanging but I can't use that anymore as when I tried to do it the 2nd time, the anchor point I was using broke. I wanted to do it in my wardrobe at night time as I know there would be a very unlikely chance of someone entering my room and finding me at that time but I can't anymore due to the clothes rail breaking and don't want to risk doing it in a different room cus I am more likely to get spotted.

I don't have much attachment to my family as I find their actions to be evil for trapping me and prevent my suicide attempts as much as possible. I actually want to kill myself more as a way to punish them for doing this to me and creating me.

 

[Nadir]

Hotel, po box, lies, that kinda thing. I feel fairly indifferent towards them honestly. They did the best they could, it wasnt enough, they think they did good because I got material possessions, but frankly none of the connection or love. Fuck them honestly. They think my depression, anxiety is just chemical bad luck and nothing to do with their alcoholism, inability to discuss anything, constant worrying, past issues
Basically they passed all their shit onto me, I fucking hate them for it tho it's not their "fault" and it's my responsibility to sort it out, but I'm tired and frankly I'm done. I can't wait to leave.

 

[yowai]

I'm 24 and living with parents again since a year. They make it hard to go through with it but if I were to ctb I'd do it in a hotel to not ruin my room or the whole house for them. I love my mom, she's overprotective sometimes and wants me to make it in life somehow, as for my dad it's complicated because he was always detached and often drinks and then bothers everyone + triggers me when Im trying to be sober

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I still live with my parents and I plan to use a PO box to get SN as well as ctb in a hotel whilst my parents think that I'm at university. I think that I'd also make some scheduled messages in advance to make my parents think that I'm doing okay so that they hopefully leave me alone long enough for me to ctb. As for the anti emetics, I'm absolutely awful at socialising which means that I suck at being able to convince my GP to prescribe me the anti emetics that I want. I have tried but my mum has made it harder by wanting to be with me during the appointment. I think that I'd just have to order it from an online pharmacy since I can do that here but my mum is heavily against it since she's extremely anti medicine. Nonetheless, I will try my best to be assertive because this is my life and it's my right to want to end it.

Of course I have attachments towards my family and me wanting to die isn't their fault (aside from my parents starting this by giving birth to me) but rather the fault of reality itself. I don't feel too hurt about it though because, whilst I acknowledge that my death would make them extremely sad, I also acknowledge that if I were to put the suffering experienced and caused by me to the suffering that my family would experience on a scale, I know that the former outweighs the latter. If pro lifers want to argue through that route, I will give a counter argument of the suffering that my death would prevent in comparison. So yeah, at the end of the day, I'm not really too fazed about how they would feel although of course I do acknowledge that their pain is valid

 

[fkyou]

I don't have much attachment to my family as I find their actions to be evil for trapping me and prevent my suicide attempts as much as possible. I actually want to kill myself more as a way to punish them for doing this to me and creating me.

Hotel, po box, lies, that kinda thing. I feel fairly indifferent towards them honestly. They did the best they could, it wasnt enough, they think they did good because I got material possessions, but frankly none of the connection or love. Fuck them honestly. They think my depression, anxiety is just chemical bad luck and nothing to do with their alcoholism, inability to discuss anything, constant worrying, past issues
Basically they passed all their shit onto me, I fucking hate them for it tho it's not their "fault" and it's my responsibility to sort it out, but I'm tired and frankly I'm done. I can't wait to leave.

I found my people

 

[vercabow]

i do, but it's normal to live with your parents until like 26-29 here, because you need to get married first or else it's basically impossible to get an apartment. plus housing goes for like 800k for a decent home.

 

[yellowraincoat225]

Hotel, po box, lies, that kinda thing. I feel fairly indifferent towards them honestly. They did the best they could, it wasnt enough, they think they did good because I got material possessions, but frankly none of the connection or love. Fuck them honestly. They think my depression, anxiety is just chemical bad luck and nothing to do with their alcoholism, inability to discuss anything, constant worrying, past issues
Basically they passed all their shit onto me, I fucking hate them for it tho it's not their "fault" and it's my responsibility to sort it out, but I'm tired and frankly I'm done. I can't wait to leave.

Im the exact opposite, my parents don't believe in "chemical bad luck", so trying to convince them it's severe adhd and anxiety that's ruining my life and not laziness is impossible, they think if I'm depressed and want to kill myself, that simply being more grateful and positive will stop those thoughts. They don't think pills are going to fix things, but getting medicated is my last hope.

Though, similarly, they also won't take responsibility for the pressure and the verbal abuse that has formed most of my personality and exacerbated my mental illnesses.

 

[SadRatQueen]

Cuerently living with family. My family is the leading factor in me wanting to ctb, so a part of me sees it as their karma. Sure, they're not the sole reason.. But I want them to see my lifless body and sit with the feeling in knowing they caused me such great pain that I decided to finally give up on life all together.

 

[freakshow]

i live with my parents and my brother, they are nice and are the only people that know of my existence but they wont miss me

 

[divinemistress36]

Yes, Im lucky to have loving parents but at the same time I wish I didnt so I could have ctb a long time ago. I will probably get a hotel

 

[BlueberrySylv]

Cuerently living with family. My family is the leading factor in me wanting to ctb, so a part of me sees it as their karma. Sure, they're not the sole reason.. But I want them to see my lifless body and sit with the feeling in knowing they caused me such great pain that I decided to finally give up on life all together.

same boat here...but I can't help but feel sadness towards this.
I once told my mom I'm suicidal and all she did was to tell me not to think about this stuff.
it's honestly disgusting how she dismissed my emotion that easily. it was hard enough to confess to her I'm in such a horrible place. but for her to dismiss it like that?. disgusting.
part of me wants to do this and for her to see my body and for her to realize when I said I'm suicidal. she shouldn't have dismissed it.

but another part of me, because my sister has died recently because of suicide also. she got in a horrible mood. my sister death is recent, only 7 months so far.
so for another suicide....my family would be in shambles.
idk what to think about this tbh.
and at the same time. they probably wouldn't care if I left this world. they barely check on me anyway. never thought something is wrong with me despite I'm 99% sure ay least something is wrong with me.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I live with my mom and I feel so sad she is kinda abusive..

 

[Lullaby]

Unfortunately. I ended up back home after my last relationship. It's a really shitty building, in a really shitty neighborhood. So many bad memories here from when I was growing up.

Unless I'm really desperate or feeling impulsive, I was thinking of renting a fancy hotel room in the city (NYC) or taking a bus up to Niagara Falls.

I've never really gotten along with my mom, but I've seen how she's reacted to my aunts and her friends passing away, and I'd feel so guilty for traumatizing her.

 

[LostLily]

Im 33 and I still live my parents. I plan on getting more privacy with a hotel room and do the deed if needed

 

[lnlybnny]

yep and i feel so shitty thinking of doing it at home, i think i should go to a hotel... but i think i'd feel even worse doing it at an unknown environment. i try not to think of what ppl will think too much. i live with my mom and i feel awful thinking what she'll go through though.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I still live with my mom. Sometimes I wish that I lived on my own but I'm grateful that she allows me to live with her instead of kicking me out, like some lousy parents.

 

[Ligottian]

I had a friend who lived with his parents (then just mother) until he died in a car crash when he was about 57. He never had a job, a date, or spent a night away from home alone.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I still live with them, I don't have a plan but there's various things I could try out of desperation. I could learn how to tie a knot for hanging if I find an anchor, or... Well, I don't really have many options. But there's days where I'm home alone which are good, and I could also just leave home if I have a method that'd work outside like in the forest. I don't care about my family because of what they do to me, I wish I could flip them off as dead if they find me.

 

[Opera]

I plan to move away and try to see if I actually want to live but might end up doing ctb. I want to plan out the way I'll go away from everyone.

 

[whitetaildeer]

i live with my dad. very scary to think about trying to ctb with him around, but i've got some very loose, vague plans (that i'm not too committed to) of what i'd do.

1. starting to go for random drives at night around my town. to "get out of the house," gradually doing it more and more every day, so me disappearing randomly at night isn't odd or worrying.
2. waiting for him to go on his one of many trips out of state. sometimes these are days, sometimes it can be a full week.
3. a hotel room.

i'm not entirely sure how i'll ctb. maybe sn, maybe a gun (i live in an open carry state, and both my dad and i plan to get a gun for ourselves). heartbreaking to think about what this could do to him (my mother died 2 years ago, and i'm the only family he has left), but i, like others here, have to remind myself of how he treats me.

 

[timetodie24]

I live with my parents. I don't plan to ctb at home so they won't find my body and more importantly, they won't find me in the process and stop me. I do care about them and i'm sure they'll find it hard regardless but i'm doing them a favour in the long run.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I'm not going to do it while I'm staying with them. I feel like that's the least I can do.

 

[bluepotato]

Live with my mum, probably get a po box for SN then get a hotel room

 

[LukaParrot]

This sounds like a bad thing... it isnt!

Economy is not doing great, housing is getting very expensive.

If you have good parents and live with them, i envy you.

Gonna do a question and answer... "So, why dont you go and live with your parents?" I dont want to give my mother more "work", she deserves a better son. She always want to have grandchildren, it's just too late for me now. She helped me during 5 years, financially and mentally. She deserves to be free and enjoy her retirement, such a strong woman she is.