Are u afraid of death?

[areyousafe??]

I'm afraid of the unknown. What happens after death, what if things get better? I'm afraid of the process of achieving death, because it is painful and I am a coward. I'm getting less afraid, in fact it makes me happy to think of death nowadays.

 

[Permanoir]

I'm scared of doing it alone

 

[cosmic-realism]

Yes.Very much.I am scared of what comes next.I hope it's just sleep.No archons,no reincarnations and all that.Just permanent sleep.I have had enough of this crap.Life has been hell since the last 21 years.

I already feel dead everyday,and it feels less and less like dissociation and more like death.

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I've been indoctrinated to believe CTB will cause me to be tortured in Hell, so while I'm not scared of death, I'm scared of what will happen afterwards.

 

[daysnumbered]

I'm not sure. Every time I have come close to ctb there is always a hesitation. I don't know if it is my SI, worrying about surviving my attempt and becoming incapacitated, or the impact on loved ones. Perhaps I am scared of death on an subconscious level.

 

[imastain]

not necessarily afraid of death per se but the process i am scared of because of the dearth of peaceful painless methods and im also scared of the ramifications of my suicide and how itd affect my family

 

[bananaolympus]

Kind of, i guess it depends of your mood because when i attempted i didn't fear death whatsoever right now is 50/50

 

[perfumeonmyneck]

I am extremely afraid of death, ironically, with how much I think about ways of dying.

I'm afraid of destination or no destination. What will I see? or think? Will I think at all?
I get panic attacks from my intrusive thoughts (As an old therapist called it) about it. I can't help it when I think about the "After". I get so scared I feel the need to scream and call out for my mother, even though I know she's not there to respond. It got so bad to a point where I went on meds just for the intrusive thoughts.

When I was a child I used to go to sleep with my hand on my chest to feel my heart beating. To give me "reassurance" that I was still alive during my sleep.

 

[HereWeGo!]

I've been indoctrinated to believe CTB will cause me to be tortured in Hell, so while I'm not scared of death, I'm scared of what will happen afterwards.

Exactly. The fear of Hell definitively keeping me away from CTB.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I'm inclined to say yes, but sometimes I just feel complete apathy. Then what my body will react with if I were to attempt is something else entirely...