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Depressed2

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Oct 25, 2024
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Does time make a big difference? going 20 or 22,or 25,27 Can it make a big difference?
I'm a 20yr old from europe. I don't have any future whatsoever,and i dont have anything right now too,just bad ppl and horrible "family" (what remained from it).
 
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Halfhourdays

Halfhourdays

"Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt."
Mar 14, 2025
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19. Currently 44.
 
Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
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I first got mental health at the age of 15. I am 19 now. I am probably not best at answering whether time matters as I have only had it for 4 years. Tho I would say a more important factor is the quality of mental health help you get. NHS services have been poop for me but private therapy has been better but has only helped me a slight amount. I have been with my current private therapist for 1-2 years.
 
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halfway_y

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Mar 18, 2025
13
I tried it once at the age of 19 (didn't do anything) and got hospitalized at age 25 (didn't do anything). It just does nothing?
 
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fadedroses

fadedroses

I want to fly away from here
Nov 10, 2022
11
14. 21 now speaking from experience its more helpful to go as an adult, they treated me like shit when i was a teenager
 
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g0ne1nthew1nd

g0ne1nthew1nd

final peace and comfort in goodbye
Feb 11, 2025
65
I mean I didn't ask for help but I was sent to a ward at 13. Didn't help me much but I am sure it can help others, to be fair my mindset was (had an ed): "I don't want to get better and you can't make me because I like being hungry" so I guess it isn't the fault of the hospital
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,591
16, I knew my life was going to be shit. I shouldn't have asked for help and just ctb. That was 34 years ago.
 
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BlueLock

BlueLock

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Nov 8, 2024
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12 when I started taking antidepressants and 14 when I started therapy regularly. I find therapy more helpful than meds but everyones different. I'd give therapy a shot no matter how old you are.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
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i don't even remember. maybe 12 or 14. it doesn't even matter. nothing ever helped. death is my only hope.
 
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mikgazer6

mikgazer6

No existence, no problem
Jul 1, 2024
152
Attempted therapy at 19 and it did nothing. Went to family and tbh it just made things worse. Tried therapy again (still 19) and it did nothing again. 22 now and mostly content but no thanks to help.
 
Placo

Placo

Life and Death
Feb 14, 2024
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In 2017, even though I stopped for years, I was very inconsistent, in 2017 I was 23 years old.
 
galaxid

galaxid

Finger Guns(tm)
Mar 11, 2025
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I was in therapy and on meds as early as 14 I think. I knew what the signs were and told my parents to take me. My mom suffered from the same thing so they took me right away. From then until about 25ish, I was in therapy and taking meds consistently, and in 2021 I finally figured out how to take my medicine regularly. Ironically, I was doing better when I was taking my medication irregularly than I am now.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Age 30. I've had ideation since I was 10 but my Dad doesn't have much time for therapy. I didn't honestly give it enough of a chance to work. It felt too intrusive plus, they prescribed antidepressants which I (stupidly) thought would turn things around. They didn't do anything.
 
missedmybus

missedmybus

That's all very well, but I have a bus to catch.
Feb 2, 2025
110
Kindergarten sent my mum and me there but don't really remember.

Was sent to a psychiatrist after elementary school for some tests but nothing came of it really.

Then when I was 15 I needed a sick note until I was 16 so I could drop out of school.
Had to go through almost SSRI and SNRI in this period. Horrible side effects.
Started to become v disenchanted with anything psychiatry/psychology.
At some point got Xanax for the AD side effects.
Thought to myself: "I don't need antidepressants, just need more Xanax".
Sourced it from some junkie I knew.

Fast forward until 2021 (I was 31 here). Relapsed completely during COVID, couldn't dig myself out of it on my own this time.
Found some government subsidized drug treatment center.
Have been seeing a therapist every week/every other week there since then.

Going into some 7 month intense CBT program in the next few weeks. 34 years old now.
 
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roommate

roommate

Not in the moment
Feb 14, 2025
314
You should try the psychiatry in my opinion.
It might not be the solution for every problem you have right now, but I've heard some about some great successes, people who came out feeling pretty good after therapy.
 
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Pluto

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Reticent Being

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Aug 4, 2024
21
when I was homeless and studying abroad, I was 18 at the time. 😭 I tried talking to counselors at my school for help, thinking i'd be recommended something... get help with depression, adhd, ect.

it did nothing, I cried threw away a lot of tissues, and there was no follow up. Now, I assume it's hard getting taken 😒 seriously.

When I was in 9, a teacher saw something was off and recommended me to a guidance counselor. Nothing else happened.

I love learning about therapy, but I haven't met anyone who is supposed to be qualified actually act qualified and caring.. if that makes sense.
 
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heartfalls

Member
Feb 18, 2023
5
16 and I'm still going to the psychiatrist until today
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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I first voiced that I was suicidal at 15, however I should have started therapy years before that to keep me from getting to that place. Had I gotten therapy then I might not be where I am now, 26 years later. But, if you feel you want to talk to someone, the best time for it is now.

As a bit of an aside: I will say I probably would not have really benefited from therapy until I got older. I know there are people who specialize in therapy for children but looking at how I handled thinking about complex concepts and self-introspection, I definitely would have gotten a much bigger benefit as someone older than ~28.
 
LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,331
That's the thing, I never asked. Just was forved to.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
203
Mostly when I was 18
My mother forced me to go mostly a few months with psychologist he told my mom i need led more help that he could offer.

My mom went and found me a psychiatrist
I was given anti depressants for depression and anxiety

Later on GAD and MDD

Trial and error on my part
Till I had to change meds a few times
Later turned into major depression
Later my psychiatrist told me after my first hospitalization , she thought I had BPD so she tried convincing more that a few times to get officially diagnosed.

My mother thought I didn't have said disorder so I was ignoring her mostly of the time till I finally signed up till I forgot I did.

And then I was officially diagnosed with BPD and well that's that

Im currently with the DBT program so here I am
 
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dosingnow

New Member
Mar 24, 2025
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18, went to a regular doctor after having a panic attack meeting my girlfriends family, diagnosed with social anxiety disorder, walked out with a bag full of free samples of Paxil. Its been hell ever since. Now 44.
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Member
Mar 15, 2025
63
at around age 15 I told my dad I was depressed. he looked annoyed and said it was normal for my age. I'm almost 60 years old now and will never, ever say that out loud again. "I'm fine how are you"
 
ilvgore

ilvgore

alien
Jan 7, 2024
122
i didn't ask for it i was to shy but the social worker saw my struggles and went with me and mom to the psychatry i think me and him weren't a match but after my almost first attempt my mom had enough and drove me to the psychatry
 
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anonymouswebuser

anonymouswebuser

edgy attention seeker
Feb 27, 2025
56
14
I was forced to go because of my social anxiety and extreme mood swings
I can't say it helped much because I keep spending weeks without booking another session that's my fault though for being afraid of my own therapist
 
apearl

apearl

mitski fan
Sep 25, 2023
157
11, parents thought I had autism or adhd but the doctors diagnosed me with GAD instead (probably partially because I'm a girl and they hate diagnosing girls with anything other then anxiety/mood disorders) been going thru different medications on and off since then and nothing has really worked that well.

I know some people who have benefitted greatly from meds though. I'm guessing most of the responses here are going to be that meds didn't work, but make sure to remember we are on a suicide forum. Of course the people here are gonna be the ones who haven't found a drug to help them yet. I'd say try meds if u can.
 
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Kbeau

Experienced
Jan 17, 2021
293
Does time make a big difference? going 20 or 22,or 25,27 Can it make a big difference?
I'm a 20yr old from europe. I don't have any future whatsoever,and i dont have anything right now too,just bad ppl and horrible "family" (what remained from it).
45. Should have gone when I was 15, things might have turned out different. Probably not but maybe
 
maneose

maneose

Member
Sep 10, 2023
72
14?15? don't know but right before i started highschool, my mom found out i was cutting myself and got me a psychiatrist. around 17-18 i got a therapist(she sucked) stopped for a while until i confessed i was planning on killing myself(19) which i got another therapist(equally as bad but bearable). im 20 now
 
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Kbeau

Experienced
Jan 17, 2021
293
14?15? don't know but right before i started highschool, my mom found out i was cutting myself and got me a psychiatrist. around 17-18 i got a therapist(she sucked) stopped for a while until i confessed i was planning on killing myself(19) which i got another therapist(equally as bad but bearable). im 20 now
Where are you at now? Trying to get better or kind of given up?
 

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