That's actually quite a beautiful thing. It's an advantage. If you look at it in a certain way. If someone shoots you, you'd have no chance of survival. If they shoot themselves afterwards, they could possibly get it wrong. But there's no chance of getting it wrong if they shot you. It's a good plan OP.
I think eventually you'll meet a decent person willing to do this.I hope so.
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@jane78flower please check with them if you want?
Hello. I am wondering if my gun will charge a successful attempt — it’s a .38 smith & Wesson do you think it will work 🥺
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