Border-line ilegal

[dandan]

The biggest reasons for my desires to CTB
is that I dont quite function as many other employees, I dont have best memory, my abilities at my work job are difficult... I feel my job is at risk
I feel being financial independent is difficult for me
I feel I dont like poverty of having financial trouble
I dont have the best social skills so improving at any job is hard

But I can do an almost ilegal referal system lottery or crowdfunding system... it might sound like a Ponzi, but its a transparent, and SIMULATED system,
but if it works, I wouldnt have to worry about money.....
so maybe risking my self to achieve it is worth it...
if not, I had plan to CTB any way.... so would it be worth it?

maybe if I solve my financial issues I would discover I still have LIVING ISSUES and mental and emotional issues, but would I still want to CTB??

CTB is it something I want, or something I think is like the best solution to my problems? because I certainly feel it is like the best sometimes...

 

[pole]

I feel like its more of a solution to your obstacles and something that eases your emotional pain and heartache that you have suffered because of your financial burden. I mean for anyone really, CTB is the easiest solution for the peace of mind. You CTB and dont have to worry about those problems that bother you and give you that heartache. But again, if its something like a financial burden; i feel like this burden, and like every other problem, its an obstacle that has the opportunity to be solved. And when solved, maybe you feel much better than you do now because that pressure of that obstacle and burden has been released and is just off your shoulders and cant hurt you anymore. Seems like you have a desire for that system your talking about to have an income and money to come your way, maybe you should put your time into that temporarily.

 

[dandan]

I dunno, hmmmm ... either I do it or I dont..