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[Namelesa]

669

 

[lamy2006]

670

 

[ijustwishtodie]

671. You both are still here? Does the concept of sleep not exist for you two?

 

[lamy2006]

672

 

[ijustwishtodie]

673

 

[lamy2006]

674 - i'm really scared of going to sleep rn

 

[Namelesa]

673 I do sleep it's just I go to bed late and often wake up in the afternoon

 

[lamy2006]

674 - scared is a bit too strong a word but i'm not sure how to describe it.
Maybe I'm just scared of the future

 

[Namelesa]

673 if I could I would sleep more, it's the closest thing to non existence

 

[lamy2006]

674

 

[Namelesa]

673

 

[lamy2006]

674

 

[ijustwishtodie]

675. I would be asleep by now if I wasn't so busy with university work

 

[lamy2006]

676

 

[Namelesa]

675 what would happen if you decided to drop out @ijustwishtodie ?

 

[lamy2006]

676

 

[Namelesa]

675

 

[lamy2006]

676

 

[ijustwishtodie]

677. Honestly, I don't even know @Namelesa. I don't think that my parents would be happy with it as they ultimately do want me to go through university and get a job and so forth. The worst* case scenario is them kicking me out (which probably wouldn't happen but it could) and the best case scenario would be getting perpetual religious lectures at how I should be strong and fight just as hard as society wants me to and so on

*worst in the sense of it causing a lot of pain. I would welcome this though if it happened as it'd be the thing that would finally make me attempt suicide

 

[lamy2006]

678

 

[ijustwishtodie]

679

 

[lamy2006]

680

 

[Namelesa]

679 what if you purposely try to get yourself kicked out of the house so that you become free from your parents?

 

[lamy2006]

680

 

[ijustwishtodie]

681

 

[lamy2006]

682

 

[ijustwishtodie]

683. I don't even need to drop out of university for them to kick me out @Namelesa. I can guarantee getting kicked out by merely telling them that I'm no longer a muslim. That would piss them off immensely to make them kick me out. The reason as to why I haven't done this is because of how scary it is and how I'd have to deal with a lot of abuse before I get kicked out. Plus I don't really have a researched suicide method yet

 

[lamy2006]

684 - sorry, i'm in the dark rn. kinda hard to see my keyboard

 

[Namelesa]

683. I don't even need to drop out of university for them to kick me out @Namelesa. I can guarantee getting kicked out by merely telling them that I'm no longer a muslim. That would piss them off immensely to make them kick me out. The reason as to why I haven't done this is because of how scary it is and how I'd have to deal with a lot of abuse before I get kicked out. Plus I don't really have a researched suicide method yet

683 I am sorry you have to deal with that, they are so evil for trapping and worsening your life while entrapping you. I hope you can find a less scary way of freeing yourself from them and find a potential good method.

 

[lamy2006]

684