
Why Not???
Not afraid of the dark
- Jan 12, 2022
- 15
I posted about my medications yesterday and how numb they make me feel. One user said that I need to make a decision in taking or stopping them. The user was right and I can't keep changing my mind. I will continue taking them but not for the reason you might think.
Maybe some will laugh at me or think I am stupid for believing. As a comfort, I use my pendulum to calm me down when I question life. Last month it confirmed that my 36 birthday will be my last birthday. It also told me that I will die by overdose. Last night it told me that this year is my last to be alive. Still saying I die by overdose. I asked my friend if these are accurate, she said yes if it swings hard and fast. Which it did. I am relieved but at the same time scared. I thought I had a few more years to do things I wanted to do. This year will be uncertain for me. I will not know until the end of this year, if I was a fool for believing.
Maybe some will laugh at me or think I am stupid for believing. As a comfort, I use my pendulum to calm me down when I question life. Last month it confirmed that my 36 birthday will be my last birthday. It also told me that I will die by overdose. Last night it told me that this year is my last to be alive. Still saying I die by overdose. I asked my friend if these are accurate, she said yes if it swings hard and fast. Which it did. I am relieved but at the same time scared. I thought I had a few more years to do things I wanted to do. This year will be uncertain for me. I will not know until the end of this year, if I was a fool for believing.