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Alwaysdreaming

Alwaysdreaming

Lost and alone
Jul 6, 2021
46
Exhausted 3.5. Trying my best. Feel like I'm waist deep in a dark swamp, struggling to move from all muck and sludge.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
5
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
848
4. Would be much lower (2-2.5-3max) ;but I'm feeling very detached/numb. ☹️
 
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SuicidalRN

SuicidalRN

Member
Jan 18, 2022
15
3/10. The thought loops and vivid images are really bothering me today. I haven't managed to get out of bed yet even though I woke up at 8:30 a.m. and it's now 11:30 a.m.

I know I need to take the dog out, but I just can't force myself to get out of bed and stop crying.
 
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WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

WhatDoesTheFoxSay?

Hold your head high, and your middle finger higher
Dec 25, 2020
1,143
5(?)/10. Not sure how to give 'exhausted' a rating :ahhha:

Had three follow-up visits to the hospital this week and I'm beat. From the lab test results I learned that I am not yet out of the water—although at lower levels than before, protein in urine is a sign that my kidneys are still inflamed. The road to recovery will be long, and it will most likely not be an easy one.

For my next appointment, I will be seeing a social services worker next Wednesday to try to get coverage for one of my prescription drugs—Myfortic, a rather expensive immunosuppressant—which, for some reason, is not under the list of subsidised drugs here.
 
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FailureGirl

FailureGirl

lost in limbo...
Jul 5, 2021
133
4
Feelings have been flat and difficult to decipher lately I'm not happy but I'm not feeling particularly depressed either, I really don't know how I feel so 4 seems appropriate.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
6
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Today I'm on a 6
I'm on recovery and feel good thanks to TRT.
Life has situation and challenges that I have not been handling successfully.

In my work I had to get mad and talk loud so my team leader pays attention, after that they understood there was a mistake and fixed it. But they told me I had not needed to get mad, but its been 7 days I've been struggling with that. They say I should have talked, I did during 7 days... But perhaps handling better is needed.

And life, the woman, finding and deciding on a partner is not easy.

I need to believe I can provide for myself a good life. <= This is something urgent!!
I need to believe I can, I'm not longer depressed, I have to believe I can make it
 
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WadeingThru

WadeingThru

Experienced
Feb 25, 2022
209
3
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
848
2.5, and dropping. I've been so numb all week. I've been dissociating as hard as I can from the pain of reality. But I've no choice but to deal with some things today & tomorrow. Not pleasant things
 
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Treeline589

Experienced
Dec 14, 2021
234
0
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
6.66 :devil:
 
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FailureGirl

FailureGirl

lost in limbo...
Jul 5, 2021
133
2
 
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WadeingThru

WadeingThru

Experienced
Feb 25, 2022
209
6 - it's Friday!
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
9
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
3 today, too depressed and tired to even get out of bed.
 
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A

ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,448
-100/10.
It was 5, maybe 6 for most of the day, kinda neutral, and then a seizure hit.
I cannot explain how bad a seizure feels, I tried for 18 years now. No dice.
So do other epileptics, funnily enough - they're just at loss for words, so neuros can't understand us. Not truly.
 
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lili

lili

Specialist
Feb 17, 2022
319
6 I feel very detached from the world. The loneliness is really painful. But I feel there's nothing else I can do. It feels like a slow torture to be stuck at my house, but takes too much energy to go and see anyone.
 
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davidgeorge

davidgeorge

Experienced
Dec 21, 2021
209
5. Really bad day emotionally.
 
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edu0z

edu0z

carried away by a moonlight shadow
Aug 25, 2021
552
2 - I just want it all to end at once.
 
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Eternally Dottie

Eternally Dottie

Dreamer
Dec 17, 2021
191
4 - spent a lot of the day lying in bed. Felt hungover and apathetic. No motivation to do anything much
 
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Squalo

Squalo

A Fatal Mistake
Jan 14, 2021
657
4, I feel depressed, tired and useless.
 
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cryptid

cryptid

Member
Jul 10, 2021
28
I don't know. However, I could really use someone to talk to.
 
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Mixo

Mixo

Blue
Aug 2, 2020
775
Back at a 6-7. I might just be coming out of the fog of depression for a little while.
 
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ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,448
4.5/10.
Lots of shit to do, no time to do it all.
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
848
5- not a high number, but highest I've felt in a while. hope it lasts. But, I've a feeling it's either transient or medicine/drug related. That's kinda what morphine does, makes me feel better.
 
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