NSFW Cliche tonights the night.

[8yy8uiyhbij]

I've been focused on hanging for a few months now and I think I'm drunk enough but still straight minded enough to hang myself with the climbers rope I bought. I'd like to have taken N from A or NaN02 from Amazon, but I'm kinda desperate.

I want to thank a ton of people on this site for not encouraging me, not thinking I should, but providing safe and well researched information and encouraging me not to ctb. However mainly due to mental illness I really want to do it, and I will be hanging myself from a door knob within the next 20 mins. Despite how morbid the site is, and what some people may say, you are lovely, kind, helpful and honestly so comforting people that I would love to have met. Thank you so much and I'll see you in heaven.
I'll clear my Cookies and history first, along with maxing my SSD and HDD so nothing can be recovered. Then when that's done I'll finally put my head through the noose I made and try to go limp or sleep as I've taken 20 or so sleeping pills.
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Still really scared but after so many attempts I'm pretty certain I want this :/

 

[Stan]

I hope this is what you want? I hope you leave peacefully from your pain

 

[8yy8uiyhbij]

I hope this is what you want? I hope you leave peacefully from your pain

Thank you, I'm trying to get the impulse to do it 10 seconds and it's over (of course meaning that I blocked the common carotid arteries)

 

[plotinus]

It's okay if today's not the day, but if it is I hope you find peace and leave as pleasantly as possible my friend.

 

[Stan]

Thank you, I'm trying to get the impulse to do it

If it's not meant to be tonight, then take a moment to think. Doing anything impulsively in this area rarely does good.

 

[Astral316]

Hope you find the sweet spot and quickly... peace be with you.

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish you peace. If SI prevails, you are always welcome back. Please do not feel pressured for having said your goodbyes.

 

[trynacbt]

We are here to support you whatever your choice may be. Be well.

 

[Jean4]

If tonight is the night, I wish you love and light.

 

[okaoki]

i wish you a peaceful exit.

 

[blackflag1]

Hoping you have a peaceful exit without that devil SI showing up to stop you. Good luck on your journey.

 

[less than]

Glad to hear that this community was comforting to you and has given help in their way. You knowing whatever you'll do it's your choice. Hope your journey goes well and you'll find your peace.

 

[8yy8uiyhbij]

I was found by a stranger, I hate them so much and I'm now sanctioned. I managed to get my phone in but I am so shakey and upset due to it

 

[justwhy?]

Being familiar with partial, I thought it would be the SI, not a stranger, to deny you. My commiserations. Silver lining - no brain damage ?

 

[8yy8uiyhbij]

II'm okay but can't be open about it fsr
Everyone is going to die, why do I get judges for being suicidal >.<

 

[Bathsheba]

II'm okay but can't be open about it fsr
Everyone is going to die, why do I get judges for being suicidal >.<

I always think the same thing. I think it's because people actually refuse to admit they're going to die one day! Whereas people on this forum know it, accept it and embrace it by choosing when it happens.

 

[Lara Francis]

I was found by a stranger, I hate them so much and I'm now sanctioned. I managed to get my phone in but I am so shakey and upset due to it

I am sorry @Emmmmmmmma .
Wishing you a speedy recovery and quick discharge x

 

[quifg]

I was found by a stranger, I hate them so much and I'm now sanctioned. I managed to get my phone in but I am so shakey and upset due to it

Where did you hang yourself?

 

[8yy8uiyhbij]

Where did you hang yourself?

My dad owns a shop, I tried it from the back store.

 

[Jen0804]

Hello Emma welcome back to the site xx

 

[Hotsackage]

Im so sorry.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I always think the same thing. I think it's because people actually refuse to admit they're going to die one day! Whereas people on this forum know it, accept it and embrace it by choosing when it happens.

If we're all going to die and there's no hope, why should we wait?

 

[IanUK]

I've been focused on hanging for a few months now and I think I'm drunk enough but still straight minded enough to hang myself with the climbers rope I bought. I'd like to have taken N from A or NaN02 from Amazon, but I'm kinda desperate.

I want to thank a ton of people on this site for not encouraging me, not thinking I should, but providing safe and well researched information and encouraging me not to ctb. However mainly due to mental illness I really want to do it, and I will be hanging myself from a door knob within the next 20 mins. Despite how morbid the site is, and what some people may say, you are lovely, kind, helpful and honestly so comforting people that I would love to have met. Thank you so much and I'll see you in heaven.
I'll clear my Cookies and history first, along with maxing my SSD and HDD so nothing can be recovered. Then when that's done I'll finally put my head through the noose I made and try to go limp or sleep as I've taken 20 or so sleeping pills.
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Still really scared but after so many attempts I'm pretty certain I want this :/

God bless you and if you succeed I wish you a long and peaceful rest