Venting close friends accepted i'm going to ctb and i don't know how to react

[waistcoat]

lol exactly, you're the light to everyones world, like the sun. But behind you, behind what they can see is all this darkness you're keeping back

jesus christ i wasn't expecting someone to so accurately describe how ive been feeling for the past 7-8 yrs lol. i haven't had words for this until now, wtf. thanks??? huh??? okay. that's cool to have words for.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

thank you for the heads up ~ though i think in this specific case i can trust them

So did I, because I would have only ever trusted this person before - they had never ever given me reason to distrust them.

I had known this person over a decade, we shared a lot together and we both have mental health difficulties. We talked extensively about having a great day together and then me leaving.

I would never ever trust another soul, it's different if you're online and you've never met them and you haven't told them any personal information so they can't call the police on you.

Good luck though

 

[waistcoat]

So did I, because I would have only ever trusted this person before - they had never ever given me reason to distrust them.

I had known this person over a decade, we shared a lot together and we both have mental health difficulties. We talked extensively about having a great day together and then me leaving.

I would never ever trust another soul, it's different if you're online and you've never met them and you haven't told them any personal information so they can't call the police on you.

Good luck though

i'm really sorry to hear that happened. i can't imagine the pain. fwiw, these people do have the ability to do welfare checks if they wanted to ~ i just do honestly trust them not to

 

[DorkyFox]

jesus christ i wasn't expecting someone to so accurately describe how ive been feeling for the past 7-8 yrs lol. i haven't had words for this until now, wtf. thanks??? huh??? okay. that's cool to have words for.

Haha no need to thank me, trust me I completely understand lol its a really difficult feeling

 

[waistcoat]

Haha no need to thank me, trust me I completely understand lol its a really difficult feeling

being the therapist for so many people when they know i'm on the edge myself, damn, that hurts

 

[DorkyFox]

So did I, because I would have only ever trusted this person before - they had never ever given me reason to distrust them.

I had known this person over a decade, we shared a lot together and we both have mental health difficulties. We talked extensively about having a great day together and then me leaving.

I would never ever trust another soul, it's different if you're online and you've never met them and you haven't told them any personal information so they can't call the police on you.

Good luck though

I'm sorry that happened, a lot of people don't even understand what happens with a welfare check and how it can go down. It isn't all sweet and support, it can be a pretty negative experience and worse, land you in hospital where they just feed you pills all day

 

[waistcoat]

I'm sorry that happened, a lot of people don't even understand what happens with a welfare check and how it can go down. It isn't all sweet and support, it can be a pretty negative experience and worse, land you in hospital where they just feed you pills all day

mmmmm… more pills to add to my daily collection

 

[DorkyFox]

being the therapist for so many people when they know i'm on the edge myself, damn, that hurts

Exactly, I feel like they feel comfort in someone they can relate to but also know you will still do anything to help them

mmmmm… more pills to add to my daily collection

Bahaha, Another fine addition to my collection *Coughing, weezing noises*

 

[waistcoat]

Exactly, I feel like they feel comfort in someone they can relate to but also know you will still do anything to help them

yeah…. it sucks. esp when they r complexly fine the next day w no issues n its js like… were u actually like that or…. js wanting attention??

 

[DorkyFox]

yeah…. it sucks. esp when they r complexly fine the next day w no issues n its js like… were u actually like that or…. js wanting attention??

Sometimes that affection and support to get what they're feeling to someone that understands can actually, I guess some peoples battles are more curable than others, of course there are those who definitely enjoy that attention that comes from it
Make me think, one ''friend'', I spoke to him and was there for him in his dark times and would spend any time he wanted. On the flipside he heard about my accident and actually proceeded to make fun of it, only messaged me again to send me something to further remind me of it. No words, no care

 

[waistcoat]

Sometimes that affection and support to get what they're feeling to someone that understands can actually, I guess some peoples than others are darker than others, of course there are those who definitely enjoy that attention that comes from it
Make me think, one ''friend'', I spoke to him and was there for him in his dark times and would spend any time he wanted. On the flipside he heard about my accident and actually proceeded to make fun of it, only messaged me again to send me something to further remind me of it. No words, no care

i'm really sorry :( that's awful

 

[DorkyFox]

i'm really sorry :( that's awful

Some people in this world I guess just get enjoyment out of those kind of things unfortunately, makes themselves feel better

 

[nomoredolor]

I met someone on SaSu that has become a very dear friend of mine. Due to how we met they are incredibly supportive and understanding of my potential plans to ctb even though they are sad thinking of me dying. I feel similarly about them. But I am so fucking thankful and grateful to have a friend that *gets it.* they are the only person that has ever been "okay" (for lack of a better word) with me ending my suffering. not gonna lie tho, it did take me weeks to process this.
Anna

 

[waistcoat]

I met someone on SaSu that has become a very dear friend of mine. Due to how we met they are incredibly supportive and understanding of my potential plans to ctb even though they are sad thinking of me dying. I feel similarly about them. But I am so fucking thankful and grateful to have a friend that *gets it.* they are the only person that has ever been "okay" (for lack of a better word) with me ending my suffering. not gonna lie tho, it did take me weeks to process this.
Anna

its never easy :< but im glad we can be there for ppl when no one else is

 

[Warlord's Pulse]

I talked a lot of death (not necessarily suicide) with my close friends, they kinda know I'm suicidal but don't know I have everything prepared. It just became natural to talk about death with'em