Constant too many bad dreams messing me up everytime I wake up

[liza]

Every night when I go to bed I endlessly dream until I wake up and I'm getting very suicidal because of it. I have so many dreams and I'm a victim of v2k so somebody on the other end is controlling and manipulating my dreams I know who my harasser he and I've told him to stop and he just ignored my messages. It's been like this for the past 3 years I have not went a single night without ever dreaming and I'm an fucking idiot because I can't even try to stop myself from going back to sleep because I'm so heavily depressed all I want to do is sleep but I can't even enjoy that. Trying to get through the day Is a struggle for me I have no motivation to do anything or function like a normal human being. I wish there was just a medication that stops dreams completely. I'm very jealous of all you other members who go to sleep peacefully and don't have a single dream. I'm so tired of this life I wish I can just end it here. I've tried hanging a few times but never worked other then this one time I successfully almost did it and was about to pass out but someone was home with me so I backed away. I can't imagine how successful I could've been back then but then I tried hanging again and for some reason I couldn't get it right again. It only almost worked that time. Plzzz just end my suffering end my dreams end my nightmare I want out I want out I want out. I really really needed to vent this in hopes of trying to calm myself instead of resorting to burning myself. I relapsed 3 days ago and I burned my thighs with a lighter now I have 3 fresh scars. Ive ruined my entire body with self harm. Even my harasser doesn't understand how suicidal and crazy he's making me he's a soulless sociopath and I hope karma bites him it's not fair the people who ruined you as a whole are doing good In their lives and I can't get justice. I'm trapped, nobody cares nobody understands. Help me somebody please stop my dreams please. I just want out I wanna die because that's the only way to stop everything

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I hope you find the relief you search for.