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[The Actual Devil]

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You are a highly empathetic person.
I know the phrase, "You are special," so often feels empty, like a meaningless platitude.
But you are.

 

[Namelesa]

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You are a highly empathetic person.
I know the phrase, "You are special," so often feels empty, like a meaningless platitude.
But you are.

thank you >< <3

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[The Actual Devil]

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'struth! ^u^

 

[Namelesa]

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I just feel like tho that can't be fully true. Like you haven't been hurt by me yet. You have recency bias so of course you just see me as this good person. Being with me is just going to drag your opinion of me downwards as there is more chance I am going to accidentally or out of intense pain make a mistake.

 

[The Actual Devil]

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Everything is going to be okay.

 

[Namelesa]

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[The Actual Devil]

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[Namelesa]

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[The Actual Devil]

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with all my siblings

Do you have a big family?

 

[Namelesa]

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Do you have a big family?

is having 3 other siblings a large number? I mean thats definitely an above average number. 2 of them have moved out tho while me and one of my sisters still live my parents. Also doggie cus he counts as family to me :3

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[The Actual Devil]

is having 3 other siblings a large number? I mean thats definitely an above average number. 2 of them have moved out tho while me and one of my sisters still live my parents. Also doggie cus he counts as family to me :3

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Of course, doggie counts, haha. In a mixed-generation household, though, I could never settle on where they fall in the family tree. Does that make him a brother to you? A brother whose poops you pick up? And yeah, I'd say 4 is big for the modern day.

 

[Namelesa]

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Of course, doggie counts, haha. In a mixed-generation household, though, I could never settle on where they fall in the family tree. Does that make him a brother to you? A brother whose poops you pick up? And yeah, I'd say 4 is big for the modern day.

I would say the dog is my adoptive child and I am his mummy while my siblings are uncle/aunts and my parents are grandparents. I am the youngest child of the family tho and my parents are in their 60s while the rest of my siblings are nearly in their 30s or in their 30s while I am 20.

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[The Actual Devil]

I would say the dog is my adoptive child and I am his mummy while my siblings are uncle/aunts and my parents are grandparents. I am the youngest child of the family tho and my parents are in their 60s while the rest of my siblings are nearly in their 30s or in their 30s while I am 20.

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Do you mind if I ask if your family is supportive of who you are? You can change the subject, and I'll delete this part of the message if that's not on the table. No pressure

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[Namelesa]

Do you mind if I ask if your family is supportive of who you are? You can change the subject, and I'll delete this part of the message if that's not on the table. No pressure

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They are quite supportive of me being trans and such. They got me on private trans healthcare and was able to get hrt and now potentially surgery in near future. They allow me to stay home without me needing to work and provide me what i want.

However they are not really understanding of my mental state and suicidalness and resulted in trapping me home to prevent me from dying which isn't helping.

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[monetpompo]

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resulted in trapping me home to prevent me from dying which isn't helping.

:(

 

[Namelesa]

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[The Actual Devil]

They are quite supportive of me being trans and such. They got me on private trans healthcare and was able to get hrt and now potentially surgery in near future. They allow me to stay home without me needing to work and provide me what i want.

However they are not really understanding of my mental state and suicidalness and resulted in trapping me home to prevent me from dying which isn't helping.

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It's a mixed blessing, then. Complicated. I'm sorry about the house arrest, but I'm glad they're helping you with your transition. How long have you been stuck inside?

 

[Namelesa]

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It's a mixed blessing, then. Complicated. I'm sorry about the house arrest, but I'm glad they're helping you with your transition. How long have you been stuck inside?

Since my first suicide attempt which was when I was 17. Basically I can't go outside on my own at all unless I am walking dog as i won't ctb then as it would put him in danger.

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[The Actual Devil]

Since my first suicide attempt which was when I was 17. Basically I can't go outside on my own at all unless I am walking dog as i won't ctb then as it would put him in danger.

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About three years, then, wow. They must be very scared to let you go. Love is complicated like that. It can't grow properly when smothered.
But if you go and don't come back...complicated.
I know you hang out in both the recovery and suicide sections.
Do you mind if I ask you how committed you are to recovery?

 

[Namelesa]

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About three years, then, wow. They must be very scared to let you go. Love is complicated like that. It can't grow properly when smothered.
But if you go and don't come back...complicated.
I know you hang out in both the recovery and suicide sections.
Do you mind if I ask you how committed you are to recovery?

At the moment I am more wanting to side with recovery cus of having a partner again now and thats really helping me but life is still difficult with them only physically visiting me occasionally. I just want to live with him and then everything will be okay but we would need money to escape from both each others parents.

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[The Actual Devil]

Independence is a powerful panacea. Healing mind and body alike.
I'm proud of you for trying. Looking back on some of your struggles, you really have come so far.
Are you waiting for more surgeries before you make any moves? If you proved worthy of some independence in some way by holding down some small job, would your parents be more open to compromise?
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[Namelesa]

Independence is a powerful panacea. Healing mind and body alike.
I'm proud of you for trying. Looking back on some of your struggles, you really have come so far.
Are you waiting for more surgeries before you make any moves? If you proved worthy of some independence in some way by holding down some small job, would your parents be more open to compromise?
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I am mainly only wanting this one surgery (which what i wanting is a scrotectomy) tho maybe i would also was laser hair removal too later on but it isn't as essential.

Problem is I can't really show any sort of independence cus of my entrapment. I also wouldn't be able to handle any sort of job cus of my low mental pain tolerance and constant stress. I am however working on making a game which is more than half way done and I plan to sell.
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[The Actual Devil]

making a game which is more than half way done and I plan to sell.

I've seen you talking about it. I know you don't want to tell us what it is, but I hope that by some chance I happen to play it someday. I'm sure I would enjoy it. You seem to have great taste.
^=^
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[Namelesa]

I've seen you talking about it. I know you don't want to tell us what it is, but I hope that by some chance I happen to play it someday. I'm sure I would enjoy it. You seem to have great taste.
^=^
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Aww thank you ^^ <3
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[The Actual Devil]

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