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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
I've been clean for 3 months and it's the first time since I was 15 that I wasn't trying to get high every week. It really fucking sucks... because it's all I can think about most days. I'm getting all twitchy and gritting my teeth again over the idea of just being high..

It's making me overly depressed most days ... Gods I'm such a addict
 
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bankai

bankai

Paragon
Mar 16, 2025
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Is your name a play on Strawberry Panic by any chance?

I've not yet tried anything other than alcohol. I plan to try ayahuasca at some point. Also coke.
 
DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Wizard
Feb 9, 2025
667
Is your name a play on Strawberry Panic by any chance?

I've not yet tried anything other than alcohol. I plan to try ayahuasca at some point. Also coke.
I have never been drunk (few ciders dont make you drunk) I just have high dislike for alcohol. I saw how alcohol made people act. I dont want to lose control like that.
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
Is your name a play on Strawberry Panic by any chance?

I've not yet tried anything other than alcohol. I plan to try ayahuasca at some point. Also coke.
The most popular recording of someone taking sn was by someone named strawberry panic online. I love blueberries.... and It's a play on her name as a way to honor her.
I have never been drunk (few ciders dont make you drunk) I just have high dislike for alcohol. I saw how alcohol made people act. I dont want to lose control like that.
Losing control is the best part imo 🙃
 
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bankai

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The most popular recording of someone taking sn was by someone named strawberry panic online. I love blueberries.... and It's a play on her name as a way to honor her.
Strawberry Panic is actually a name of an old anime. That's what she was named after, I guess. Nice.
 
Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
Strawberry Panic is actually a name of an old anime. That's what she was named after, I guess. Nice.
Yeah I've heard of it , I've been meaning to watch it 😅
 
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Emerita

Ending my suffering
Jan 16, 2025
102
I've used crystal meth daily since I was 16. I've had my fair share of withdrawals from other substances. I definitely understand that craving, Its tough, they suck. But hey kudos to you for three months! Being an addict is hard, sorry to hear you're going through this. 🫂
 
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Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
I've used crystal meth daily since I was 16. I've had my fair share of withdrawals from other substances. I definitely understand that craving, Its tough, they suck. But hey kudos to you for three months! Being an addict is hard, sorry to hear you're going through this. 🫂
I know I'm going to relapse on something eventually and when that time comes I hope I overdose and die .😁
 
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Emerita

Ending my suffering
Jan 16, 2025
102
I know I'm going to relapse on something eventually and when that time comes I hope I overdose and die .😁
Well I wouldn't recommend meth in you relapse then because its (nearly) impossible to overdose fatally on
 
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Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
That just made me realize I actually dont know a single person who uses heroin (except on the off occasion) everybody uses fent around here
Yeah fent is honestly replacing heroin usage ...that might be the call. Idk.
I just really want to get high .
 
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Emerita

Ending my suffering
Jan 16, 2025
102
Yeah fent is honestly replacing heroin usage ...that might be the call. Idk.
I just really want to get high .
My plug when I asked for fent sent someone to my house to make sure I was mentally okay… like a welfare check but without the cops plus he wouldn't let me use fent unless being supervised to make sure I didn't die ;-;
Ya it's understandable you want to get high
 
Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
My plug when I asked for fent sent someone to my house to make sure I was mentally okay… like a welfare check but without the cops plus he wouldn't let me use fent unless being supervised to make sure I didn't die ;-;
Ya it's understandable you want to get high
What drugs do you enjoy if you had to say?
 
Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
Meth is my drug of choice but I like molly, ketamine, acid, dillys and valium oh I like alcohol but socially. What drugs do you enjoy or were doing before?
Weed,oxy,dph,acid,lsd,shrooms,weed, and ummm I drink occasionally
 
Emerita

Emerita

Ending my suffering
Jan 16, 2025
102
Weed,oxy,dph,acid,lsd,shrooms,weed, and ummm I drink occasionally
I really dont like weed I avoid it idk why but I start acting all nervous when someone offers me some. Im surprised you dont like K or have you not tried it before based on the drugs you listed it seems like you would like it or maybe Im projecting my like for it lol
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I'm sure I would have these cravings if I did drugs. I can be very bad with binge eating. That's partly why I've never been tempted to try. Don't trust myself.
 
Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
I really dont like weed I avoid it idk why but I start acting all nervous when someone offers me some. Im surprised you dont like K or have you not tried it before based on the drugs you listed it seems like you would like it or maybe Im projecting my like for it lol
I've never tried it , I've always wanted to ... that I've wanted to try datara and DMT 😅
 
Emerita

Emerita

Ending my suffering
Jan 16, 2025
102
I've never tried it , I've always wanted to ... that I've wanted to try datara and DMT 😅
I mean idk you but I feel like you would like it sadly its a shorter high but I compare every drug to meth which is a long high. But K and some good music is something else oh if you like K you probably would like molly but molly comedowns are horrible
I just realized this drug talk probably is making your cravings worse or at least not helping my bad Im sorry
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
627
I mean idk you but I feel like you would like it sadly its a shorter high but I compare every drug to meth which is a long high. But K and some good music is something else oh if you like K you probably would like molly but molly comedowns are horrible
I just realized this drug talk probably is making your cravings worse or at least not helping my bad Im sorry
I've had Molly, it's great but yeah the comedown made it not really unappealing...
 

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