Mort
No use to know one
- Feb 15, 2019
- 622
I really hate my self i cant even look in mirrors anymore i have not shave for weeks as it means looking into a mirror :( . So i should end it all but to shit scared to die and to chicken shit to live. What the hell am i ment to do ???? I no longer trust any one these days especially any on in a perfesernol roll like doctors dentist's or the folks at the job center . I dam well know the doctors and dentists are given me the short end of the sitck as i am out of work no fault of my own. Why you ask it is i am entitled to free treatment but it not like i never work in my life i got 25 years of work behind me. The dentist definitely dont like it they way they look at you pisses me off but if i day any thing i would get kicked out and then i have no dentist. The doctors are trying to get me of my painkillers as i get them free at the moment it not for my health it because I am costing them about 30 quid a month in free prescription . I am just so fed up have to fight for every little thing dont you think i earn a little sum thi g by now :( . My problem is i am a white Male in his late 40s and sad to say living at home with his folks. So that means i am at the bottom of the pile when it comes to financial help. I am just so sodding tied all the time not slept properly for months and months doctors tell me I need to relax and be calm and i be ok LOL what a joke. All they now trying to convince me most of my pain is in my head and its not as bad as i think it is but they won't send me to hospital to make shore no that cost money . I had it but even being this bad i cant summon up the neve to CTB what it going to take. May if i poison myself slowly can kill of a few internal organs sum are half way they all ready so may be just may be never know . Any way sorry for the long story was not going to be this long but just got going and could not stop LOL :)
