Venting Decision made on CTB

[d3ad]

I have decided that I am just gonna go ahead and CTB. I will wait for everyone to go to sleep, at around 2 AM I will do it. I only have SN. I know it will cause me to vomit and stuff, and honestly I don't even care. I will drink enough to cause death. I do not have the patience to wait for weeks to get Meto and all that other stuff when I am in pain. I know that SN will cause me to die. I might experience a lot of pain and discomfort, but it does not matter. The short amount of discomfort and pain I will feel does not measure to the pain I have felt my whole life. I will update you guys before I drink it, and after I have drank it (if I will still be conscious). I am scared and nervous, but I know what is best for me and no amount of SI will convince me not to do this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[d3ad]

I hope you find the freedom from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

Thank you so much. I hope that I will.

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish to you, however things work out.

 

[d3ad]

Every good wish to you, however things work out.

Thank you so much!

 

[moonflow3r]

safe travels please let us know how things go, I wish you peace

 

[d3ad]

safe travels please let us know how things go, I wish you peace

Thank you so much! I certainly will.

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

I'm so sorry life brought you to this point. Part of me hopes you will change your mind, but I also know it isn't my place to insist a stranger's life goes on when life must certainly be so painful for you. Either way, please remember there is no shame in changing your mind, and we will still be here for you if you stay. But if you do choose to go, I hope your transition out of this life is peaceful and with little pain.

 

[saynothing]

I have decided that I am just gonna go ahead and CTB. I will wait for everyone to go to sleep, at around 2 AM I will do it. I only have SN. I know it will cause me to vomit and stuff, and honestly I don't even care. I will drink enough to cause death. I do not have the patience to wait for weeks to get Meto and all that other stuff when I am in pain. I know that SN will cause me to die. I might experience a lot of pain and discomfort, but it does not matter. The short amount of discomfort and pain I will feel does not measure to the pain I have felt my whole life. I will update you guys before I drink it, and after I have drank it (if I will still be conscious). I am scared and nervous, but I know what is best for me and no amount of SI will convince me not to do this.

I really hope you find peace and comfort. I'm sorry it's come to this. Love n light darling.

 

[d3ad]

I'm so sorry life brought you to this point. Part of me hopes you will change your mind, but I also know it isn't my place to insist a stranger's life goes on when life must certainly be so painful for you. Either way, please remember there is no shame in changing your mind, and we will still be here for you if you stay. But if you do choose to go, I hope your transition out of this life is peaceful and with little pain.

This is very sweet, thank you. A part of me does want to change my mind, but I have no choice. My living conditions are horrible. I was gonna endure for a while and I had hope, but in the situation I am currently in, I have no choice but to go.

I really hope you find peace and comfort. I'm sorry it's come to this. Love n light darling.

Thank you so much, sweetheart!

 

[d3ad]

Update: SI has kicked in so bad. I ended up breaking my fast by eating a banana. I also feel so sleepy now, I still have to wait 6 more hours. I don't know what to do atp.

 

[Linda]

I have decided that I am just gonna go ahead and CTB. I will wait for everyone to go to sleep, at around 2 AM I will do it. I only have SN. I know it will cause me to vomit and stuff, and honestly I don't even care. I will drink enough to cause death. I do not have the patience to wait for weeks to get Meto and all that other stuff when I am in pain. I know that SN will cause me to die. I might experience a lot of pain and discomfort, but it does not matter. The short amount of discomfort and pain I will feel does not measure to the pain I have felt my whole life. I will update you guys before I drink it, and after I have drank it (if I will still be conscious). I am scared and nervous, but I know what is best for me and no amount of SI will convince me not to do this.

I hope all goes well for you. If I don't see you again, I would like to say that I'm glad I got the chance to interact with you on SaSu. And I do like your pfp.

 

[shroomia]

No matter what happens I hope you find the peace and the relief you search for. I'm really sorry life has been so hard on you

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Sorry for all the pain this life has caused you. Sending love your way and wishing you only peace as you deserve. Hope that you find calmness within, and don't feel too rushed, you will know when timing is best. Safe travels on your journey, if you feel it's time to leave.

 

[humantool]

I hope you find the peace you deserve and need

 

[moonflow3r]

Update: SI has kicked in so bad. I ended up breaking my fast by eating a banana. I also feel so sleepy now, I still have to wait 6 more hours. I don't know what to do atp.

SI is a bitch, be kind to yourself Try to distract yourself perhaps? Watch a tv show or movie ? Listen to nice music for the last time ? We are here for you <3

 

[RiverOfLife]

I wish you the best and peace with your decision

 

[rozeske]

It is perfectly alright to change your mind. I hope you got to eat well and rest for now and I hope you gave yourself the benefit of time to see if your decision is the same in both your highs or lows or any in between. I wish you peace and all the best.

 

[GuppyBoyo]

I have decided that I am just gonna go ahead and CTB. I will wait for everyone to go to sleep, at around 2 AM I will do it. I only have SN. I know it will cause me to vomit and stuff, and honestly I don't even care. I will drink enough to cause death. I do not have the patience to wait for weeks to get Meto and all that other stuff when I am in pain. I know that SN will cause me to die. I might experience a lot of pain and discomfort, but it does not matter. The short amount of discomfort and pain I will feel does not measure to the pain I have felt my whole life. I will update you guys before I drink it, and after I have drank it (if I will still be conscious). I am scared and nervous, but I know what is best for me and no amount of SI will convince me not to do this.

i highly advise against it, the chances of failure are very high without anti emetics, it's best if you wait

 

[d3ad]

I hope all goes well for you. If I don't see you again, I would like to say that I'm glad I got the chance to interact with you on SaSu. And I do like your pfp.

Thank you so much! You are such a darling.

No matter what happens I hope you find the peace and the relief you search for. I'm really sorry life has been so hard on you

Thank you so much!
My brain was fuzzy these past few days. I am also very sick, so I felt like the nausea I had would make taking SN worse since I don't have any antiemetics. I will try tonight, and see how it's going to make me feel. I will make two drinks. If one fails, I will take the second one.

Sorry for all the pain this life has caused you. Sending love your way and wishing you only peace as you deserve. Hope that you find calmness within, and don't feel too rushed, you will know when timing is best. Safe travels on your journey, if you feel it's time to leave.

Thank you so much dear friend!

I hope you find the peace you deserve and need

Thank you darling, I hope so too.

SI is a bitch, be kind to yourself Try to distract yourself perhaps? Watch a tv show or movie ? Listen to nice music for the last time ? We are here for you <3

Thank you so much. I did that, and I felt better. I appreciate the support you guys are showing me.

I wish you the best and peace with your decision

Thank you!

It is perfectly alright to change your mind. I hope you got to eat well and rest for now and I hope you gave yourself the benefit of time to see if your decision is the same in both your highs or lows or any in between. I wish you peace and all the best.

Thank you so much! You are very kind.

i highly advise against it, the chances of failure are very high without anti emetics, it's best if you wait

Thank you, and I know this is coming from a good place, but I will try to ensure that it works.

i highly advise against it, the chances of failure are very high without anti emetics, it's best if you wait

Thank you, and I know this is coming from a good place, but I will try to ensure that it works.