Depressed for many years. Now I'm here. Maybe the beginning of the end

[Sad German lady]

I've been depressed for many years. Have hurt myself many times, but never had a suicide attempt. Now I'm here, because I can't stop thinking about it anymore. Maybe this is the beginning of the end. I don't know

 

[TransTaxEvader]

whatever it may be, we'll be here for you. you're welcomed here no matter how life might change, better or worse.

 

[Sad German lady]

Thx

 

[emmiile]

hopefully things somehow take turn for the better even if it seems they won't anyhow i hope you'll find what brings you peace whatever it may be

 

[Sad German lady]

Thank you

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

Once you get in, you never left alive - just kidding. But, yeah, be here means that you turned into a suicidal person, what society sees as a threat, but here is seen as a legit expression of suffering. If you're gonna die or not, it's up to you, but certainly will find that you're not alone in your desire for death.

 

[Kbeau]

I've been depressed for many years. Have hurt myself many times, but never had a suicide attempt. Now I'm here, because I can't stop thinking about it anymore. Maybe this is the beginning of the end. I don't know

I hear you and I'm sorry for your pain. Being here is helpful in my opinion. You can see other people's situations and what they're doing/trying to get better. And you can see/hear about people working towards catching the bus and make your own decision. My advice is to do everything you can to get and feel better and, as a last resort, see if CTB makes sense for you

 

[JJMaynard97]

I've been depressed for many years. Have hurt myself many times, but never had a suicide attempt. Now I'm here, because I can't stop thinking about it anymore. Maybe this is the beginning of the end. I don't know

I know the feeling. I understand what you mean. For me I joined this a couple of years ago. Then I guess somehow managed to put all the pain and mental thoughts of dread behind me. But something clicked and Im here..I spoke to someone on here a couple of years ago and I remember telling them I wanted to be gone before I hit 30. So who knows. I'm like you the feelings are getting stronger and they're taking hold for longer than before. So I feel im slipping away. All the best and hope you emprove.

 

[steveholt]

Iv been and am in tbat position.. mu illness and my life is why im here but ..while im here and while we are all here talking, chatting and disscusing... we are ALL STILL here being honest and have no fear of being judged about our thoughts and plans .. but keep talking