Do you self-harm?

[Cee]

I dont know if this poll has been done before, but im curious. Ive been self harming since 12, just wondering if you guys do as well.

 

[End.of.the.line]

There have been quite a few times I have been seriously depressed and felt like CTB but I never once had the urge to self harm. I naturally try to avoid any unnecessary pain or damaging my body.

 

[Trashcan]

I used to.

 

[QueenEtna]

Yep, I cut all over my body with a knife and also whip myself with cords.

 

[Tiburcio]

Never did. Never even near of trying it.

Honestly, people who do it must have a lot of courage.

 

[Miss clefable]

Drinking myself to death abusing pills punching myself cutting etc

 

[Taylored]

I use to cut frequently now I rarely do.

 

[fuckthis]

Tried too but didn't have the guts, putting myself through unnecessary pain didn't make much sense to me unless I was having one of those nights. Then I'd just hit my head repeatedly but that's about it.

 

[Jaded]

Yeah. Only thing that helps me cope with this brutal world.
Cutting is a terrible thing to start but in some ways head banging is worse.
Disorders that cause this are why euthanasia should be allowed.

 

[JustLosingMyself]

Cutting, pulling out toenails and knocking my head against a wall when stressed

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I pretty much stopped self-harming when I started getting psychiatric treatment. And sound my own sources for illicit substances. I suppose drug use or abuse could be considered self harm?

 

[NOISYMIND]

I stopped for a while and I started doing it again recently but not so often.

 

[Hulahula Sucks]

I used to cut myself once in a while when I was much younger. Now that I am in my 40s, sometimes punching myself brings some relief, but only very briefly.

 

[PatKat]

When I was younger I use to cut, and burn myself. That all stopped when I was 18 and joined the military though.

 

[Lara Francis]

Yes.I have been such a bad self harmer by cutting.
It's a coping mechanism, that transfers emotional pain into physical pain as a distraction.
In some incidents it has been something to replace ctb but not always.
It's a very hard addition to break which you will only stop when you are ready to and have found something in its place.

 

[Abel]

I occasionally cut my ankles. It's a good 'outlet' of sorts for my emotions, helps distract me from them. Since I rarely confide in anyone (or even talk to them to begin with...), my emotions tend to just keep building up, until I eventually can't take it anymore, and then... yeah.

The only real issue is that I never sanitize my blades nor do I clean my cuts, which is pretty bad considering I tend to cut deep. I know, it's ironic of me, a member of a suicide forum, to worry about their 'health' in a way, but I'm trying to lose my life not my foot lol.

 

[RM5998]

Yep. It's a somewhat irregular thing, though. Some days are good, and I don't need to do it. Some days are bad, and I pull the cuts further open and pour tap water on them to make them sting more.

 

[KindaAlwaysKnew]

I sometimes try to scratch myself but never manage to break the skin i'm too wimpy for that.

 

[Avicii]

I dont know if this poll has been done before, but im curious. Ive been self harming since 12, just wondering if you guys do as well.

Why do you self harm and can't you stop ? Curious ?

 

[Miss clefable]

Why do you self harm and can't you stop ? Curious ?

Because the pain is constant

 

[RainAndSadness]

I do, yes. My method is burning. It really helps when I'm suffering really badly, especially when all the pain is piling up inside of me. It's kinda like an orgasm to a certain extend, like it feels really good when I can temporarily relieve all the pain. I just burnt myself 4 days ago and my arms are covered in scars. Most of them fade away luckily so it doesn't look too bad but I think people notice it when I'm in public with short sleeves.

 

[Shewaitsforme]

I use drugs to push my body to its limit hoping one day it will just give up and die. Failing that i dont intend to see in the new year so ill take steps to make sure that doesnt happen

 

[Trashcan]

My main form of self harm was cutting but I also did some burning. I have since switched to comfort eating. Man after this thread I'm wondering if I should go back to self harming so I can lose some weight...

 

[ghostman]

I am into binge drinking and eating if that counts as harming..

 

[LifeSick]

I am into binge drinking and eating if that counts as harming..

Me too, but I guess it's different. I don't know. When you cut yourself you feel pain and then you feel pleasure (or relieve, I don't know, never done it). When you do drugs or binge eat you get the pleasure first and then the pain as a side effect after. Well, it's just a thought that came into my mind just now.

 

[Sayo]

I was thinking about it recently and I think the reason I stopped cutting is in huge part because I wanted to stop having my razors confiscated. Also, I hated the way it made my mom cry when I didn't hide it well enough. I also enjoy holding my pressure points or whatever they are. Someone had a bad reaction to seeing me do this in a calm frame of mind once though and it's a bad memory that makes me feel guilty, kind of like cutting.

I still hit my head against the wall a lot, and I also punch myself. I am weak but have a particular pain spot that I like to punch.

Therapy increased my distress tolerance to the point I no longer have to cut to handle my intense emotional oscillations after something bad happens, though.

 

[RM5998]

How does self-harm by bruising work? I honestly don't get how people manage to get that to cause more pain than cutting.

Or maybe I've been hit too much to sense that kind of pain, who knows.

 

[CentreMid]

I dont know if this poll has been done before, but im curious. Ive been self harming since 12, just wondering if you guys do as well.

Me too, that that exact age. I've been on and off with it for years, since I use it as a coping mechanism instead of a suicide method. Right now I'm in the middle of a relapse

 

[406blue]

Smoking like a chimney, alcohol and benzo abuse counts as self harm, right?

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

Yes have cut, burned, punched myself in face, and punched things till I bled.