nothingspecial
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- Nov 18, 2024
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Do you think others around you can tell that you're actively or passively suicidal? Is there anything you're doing to try to hide it from others? Or are you trying to give hints as a cry for help?
I personally think I'm doing a very good job at hiding it, but there are definetely some obvious signs others will look back on when I pass. I think my suicide will be very shocking to others because I seem to be doing very well right now, though I think everyone would agree that I was going to die by suicide at some point, just not this soon.
When I was younger and suicidal, it was very obvious. I would tell myself that I didn't want anyone else to know, but I would leave out my diary full of suicidal thoughts in an open space for my parents to look through. I think I was subconsciously making it obvious as a cry for help. I didn't really want to die, I just wanted to escape from my problems. This time around, I actually want to die and be sucessful with it, so I'm being as careful as possible to make sure it happens. I'm acting normal, joyful, talking about plans for the future, etc.
I personally think I'm doing a very good job at hiding it, but there are definetely some obvious signs others will look back on when I pass. I think my suicide will be very shocking to others because I seem to be doing very well right now, though I think everyone would agree that I was going to die by suicide at some point, just not this soon.
When I was younger and suicidal, it was very obvious. I would tell myself that I didn't want anyone else to know, but I would leave out my diary full of suicidal thoughts in an open space for my parents to look through. I think I was subconsciously making it obvious as a cry for help. I didn't really want to die, I just wanted to escape from my problems. This time around, I actually want to die and be sucessful with it, so I'm being as careful as possible to make sure it happens. I'm acting normal, joyful, talking about plans for the future, etc.